What’s gotten into me?I need to snap out of this, and fast. But he’s making it impossible by keeping his hand on my thigh.
I realize she’s not far away; she’s sitting directly across from me. “Sorry,” I murmur. “What did you say?”
“Where did you go?” Harvey asks, a wolfish grin making me suddenly worry he can read my mind.
I straighten my back as my gaze meets Molly’s.
“We were talking about our hobbies. It’s your turn,” she says.
“Hobbies,” I repeat.
“Yeah,” Harvey says with an expectant look.
“Um, I don’t really have any because I spend all my time with Chad.”
“What do you two do?” he asks. His hand retracts, and though I want to protest, I start talking to avoid any further physical contact. I’m so deprived of touch that I’m craving it from the person I shouldn’t.
“We watch movies. Mainly Marvel or Disney ones.” Once I start, I can’t stop. “My life changed when I had Chad. There wasn’t any free time to do what I used to do.”
“And what did you used to do?” he pries.
“Dance classes, reading, travelling.” I sigh. When was the last time I did any of that?
I gave up dance classes when I fell pregnant… seven years ago.
Reading? That was mostly during holidays or long weekends, but the last time I read was last year.
Traveling? The last vacation was my honeymoon in Bali. Before that, I used to travel with friends every few years. I was so carefree back then. Now, I don’t even recognize that person. She’s so different from the stressed-out one I’ve become.
To steer the conversation away from why I don’t do those things anymore, I add, “Now I work or hang out with Chad.”
“He beat me and Hugo at Chutes and Ladders the other night,” Molly chimes in.
No surprise there. We play together often because it’s a game I played with my dad and now with Chad. “Yeah, he’s competitive,” I mutter.
“I wonder where he gets that from?” Harvey teases.
“I’m not competitive,” I argue, with a raised eyebrow.
Molly and Harvey look at me like I’m joking.
“What?” I say, feeling offended.
“You can’t be serious,” Harvey says.
“I am serious.” I cross my arms over my chest.
“It’s not a bad thing. He’ll be successful,” Harvey says.
“Just like his momma,” Molly adds, throwing me a wink.
“Not yet,” I murmur.
“We will be. I’m not wasting my time here for it not to pay off,” Harvey adds confidently.
My mouth falls open as I stare at him for a moment.Wasting his time…
Clenching my hands into fists at my sides, my nails stab into my palms, grounding me. “No one’s holding you here.”