Page 76 of Zane

But we ne­ver can prove

The de­lights of His love

Until all on the al­tar we lay;

For the fa­vor He shows,

For the joy He be­stows,

Are for them who will trust and ob­ey.

Then in fel­low­ship sweet

We will sit at His feet.

Or we’ll walk by His side in the way.

What He says we will do,

Where He sends we will go;

Never fear, on­ly trust and ob­ey.

The words resonated deeply with Zane, and reinforced within him the need to turn his focus from inward to upward.

He should have been able to come to this point sooner. He shouldn’t have needed Sarah to come and give him closure. To shut the door on what they’d once had.

Now that he’d opened his heart to what he knew was right and was considering what God would want, the guilt of so many things weighed heavily on Zane.

When the service ended, Zane grabbed his crutches and got to his feet. He waited for a break in the people heading up the aisle, then maneuvered his way out of the row, moving back so that Kelsey and the others could exit. He was slow moving, so he always brought up the rear.

In the foyer, his parents found them, and his mom gave everyone hugs, even Kelsey. Zane could see that surprised her,and honestly, he was a bit surprised himself. Perhaps his mom was warming up to Kelsey. Or at least she was trying to treat her better than she had initially.

“How are you feeling, sweetheart?” his mom asked him. “I was so glad to hear that your scan showed that everything is healing well.”

“Yes. The doctor was pleased with the results.” Zane wished his brain felt like everything was doing well. The headaches were a pain. Literally.

“Nothing on the memory front?”

It was the question he hated the most those days. Like he wouldn’t make a huge announcement on the family group chat if he started to recall things…

“Nope. No memories coming back.”

“We’ll continue to pray.”

Zane had no idea when he was supposed to accept that this was just how things were going to be. When should he give up the hope that his memory would be restored? He doubted that anyone could give him a definite answer on that.

But he was coming to realize that he couldn’t put his life—and Kelsey’s life—on hold indefinitely. Once he was physically healed and no longer dealing with a leg cast, he was going to have to make some decisions.

He wasn’t sure yet what direction he would choose in his career. It was a big decision, and it made his head ache if he thought too much about it.

“It was lovely to hear Sarah and her husband share,” his mom said. “I’m glad Pastor Kennedy could fit them in.”

Zane glanced over to where Sarah and Ross had set up their table. Several people stood there with them, so it was apparent that their presentation had resonated with some who’d heard it. He told himself that he was happy for them. And he was… mostly.

Turning to Kelsey as his parents spoke to Lee and Rori, Zane kept his voice low as he said, “Are you ready to go?”

She glanced around with a frown. “You don’t want to wait for the others?”

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