Page 59 of Why Not Us?

Now, she looks utterly bewildered. “How do you—?”

“When you’re trying to psych yourself up for something, you do what you just did,” I gesture at her hands that give her away every time. “You smooth down your clothes. When it works, your shoulders straighten. When it doesn’t, you fold your hands together in front of you.”

I’ve maybe been paying more attention to her than I let myself believe.

She watches me in surprise for a moment, then says, “I promised Vic something a while ago. The next time I had sex, I’d tell the person something. But it’s awkward.”

“You can tell me anything, Adalie.”

She nods and squeezes her eyes shut, taking a deep breath, speaking in a rush. “I’ve never had good sex.”

I’m not sure what I’d been expecting, but it wasn’t that. I stand there, without speaking until she peeks one eye open.

“Oh, good. You’re still here.”

“Where was I going to go?” I ask.

“I was afraid you’d think I’m a lunatic and leave.”

“Well, you’re maybe a little bit of a lunatic, but I’m not leaving.”

She laughs and some of the tension seeps out of her. I gesture toward the bed and say, “Let’s sit. Tell me more about this.”

I sit on the edge, and she takes a place next to me, her legs tucked underneath her.

After a steadying breath, she says, “I’ve never been able to… come… with a man except once when I did all the work to make it happen.”

My eyebrows shoot up. “Never?”

She shakes her head. “Until last year, I thought it was a problem with me, so I talked to Vic about it. She asked if I’d ever… orgasmed on my own.” Her face turns that adorable shade of pink again. I really want to kiss her, but I hold back.

“And?”

“I had, but only with…”

She lifts one hand off the bed.

“Your fingers,” I say, taking the hand with mine and guiding it to my lips. I kiss the tip of each of her fingers, loving the way she watches me do it.

“Yes,” she says, breathless.

“Continue with the story, princess,” I say.

She tugs her hand back. “You’re distracting me,” she says. “Anyway. Vic said the only way to have good sex is to let my partner know what’s working and what’s not. And the only way to know is to practice. She took me out… and we went… shopping… for…”

“You can say the word.”

She looks away from me. “Toys. We started with a couple and since then I’ve bought a few more. Trying to find out which ones I like best. I have a collection.”

Holy fuck. This woman has a collection of sex toys. And she’s been practicing orgasming for the next time she has sex. My dick is painfully hard right now, but she’s also nervous and has only ever come with a man once when she’s done all the work to make it happen.

When her eyes finally meet mine again, I say the only thing I can think of.

“Show me.”

Chapter 19

Adalie

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