Page 52 of Us Dark Few

Like drops of wax as the candle bleeds

Did you know the monster was me?

Voices cry and tremble like the earth

Trampling hopes while honoring doubts

I became fluent in every form of fear

All my bads are timestamped and memorized

All the goods of me are blotted and erased

Did you know the monster was me?

You will never be

Good enough

Loved enough

Strong enough

Twisted phrases and malicious lies

Quickly turn to wicked truths

I strike the words of destruction

I do it to be first

I do it to be worse

Did you know the monster was me?

The might of me relinquished the throne

Defeat sank me to my knees

Shuttering my gaze for the final blow

Until I heard a distant cry

Ferocious fights raged and something kept me alive

Death knocked and I peered into his face

He balked and scattered at the sight

Did you know the monster was me?

I outlived all my worst days

Survived every lonely cold night

My eyes open for all those that are closed

The voice within my voice stirs

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