The message was marked as seen a second later. I held my breath as the seconds ticked by. He was probably checking out my profile, the same as I’d done before messaging. Before I could get too into my head about what he might think of it, he answered.
MrNiceGuy: hey
I paused. I had no idea what I was supposed to say. How did people talk to each other on here? Were we supposed to chat first, or was he expecting to just jump right into the sexting? I should have thought this out better.
MrNiceGuy: your silence is telling me you’re either nervous or too busy checking out my pics to answer
Sinbin: the first one
Sinbin: I have no idea what I’m supposed to do right now
MrNiceGuy: I’m guessing you’re new?
Sinbin: oh yeah
Sinbin: you’re the first person I messaged
Sinbin: and the first profile I swiped right on
I cringed. I shouldn’t have admitted that. I was already making things awkward and weird; I didn’t need to add being completely inexperienced to the list.
MrNiceGuy: really?
Sinbin: yeah
MrNiceGuy: I’m honored
MrNiceGuy: what’s making you nervous?
Sinbin: everything lmao
MrNiceGuy: how about you give me some specifics and we’ll see if I can make you more comfortable
Sinbin: I’ve never done anything like this before
MrNiceGuy: have you wanted to?
Sinbin: yeah, I mean that’s why I’m on here
MrNiceGuy: is anything else making you nervous?
Sinbin: lots of stuff, but that’s normal for me
MrNiceGuy: being nervous?
Sinbin: not exactly. More just overthinking everything and worrying about things I don’t need to worry about
MrNiceGuy: like what?
Sinbin: well, I’m worried I’m fucking this up. That I’m not doing it right because I have no idea how I’m supposed to act and you’re going to judge me for being a pathetic newb
MrNiceGuy: you don’t have to worry about any of that
MrNiceGuy:in fact, I’ll tell you a secret if you want
Sinbin: tell me
MrNiceGuy: I *really* like that I’m not just the first person you messaged, but also that I’m the first profile you swiped right on