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Hunter and Ro had been proving me wrong, and I didn’t know how I felt about it. I had been reluctant about it because of my past and I didn’t think anything more than quick fucks with spankings would occur, but it seemed I had been wrong.

The last few weeks had shown me something so different that I didn’t know a contract could be like this. It wasn’t just sex, though it was a pretty big part. We stayed the night with each other, had breakfast together and just a few days ago, we all went out for dinner.

I had been so wrong about them that now they were consuming my thoughts. Now that I was going through my collaboration with a fellow cam boy, it pained me to say it felt a little wrong.

“What's on your mind?” Beau asked.

“A lot of regret and thinking ‘what the fuck am I doing’,” I said, sitting at a table in the Atelier. It was a Thursday, so it was aslower night, especially since it had been snowing non-stop since this morning.

Beau and I had a great idea about doing it at the club, it would be a great set- up and I didn’t mind being tied up. We thought it would be a good idea to spice things up, bring something new to our sex scenes. This wasn’t the first time we had done a scene together and since we made so much money the last time, we thought another one was due.

Beau was gorgeous and he was the sweetest man I had ever met. I don’t know how he had such a sunny disposition with some of the stories he had told me. He had been burned too many times by life, but fucking on-screen helped his mental life. While I made most of my money from doing live cams, he made his money by posting videos and doing a lot of collabs.

He had a variety of videos that featured so many different things with men, women and groups of both. He built an empire I was impressed with and had contracts with porn studios as well as brands that raked in money. He had won a lot of awards for best fucking, best up-and-coming anal scene and god knew what else.

I had no idea why the hell he wanted to collab with me, but it worked out perfectly when I moved to Denver, because that's where he also lived. The moment we met, we just clicked, and it helped that he was only a few years older than me. He was the only person I had ever done anything with outside of my solo stuff…. Well, and I guess with Ro, which turned out to be a big hit and people were begging him to come back.

“Ok…spill it,” he said, smiling at a few patrons.

You couldn’t help but gravitate towards him.

“I can’t,” I said, drumming my fingers on the table.

“What do you mean you can’t,” he scoffed. “You know I wouldn’t?—”

“It's not that I think you would say anything,” I interrupted him. “There is an NDA involved.”

“Are you in trouble?” he whispered.

I chuckled, “Not in the way you think I am.”

“So, you're not keeping a deep dark secret or maybe a billionaire's baby?” He leaned in closer.

“Definitely a secret, but not a billionaire's baby,” I said, swirling my wine glass with a smile.

“Damn, we could have been rich, Sia,” he said, leaning back in his chair.

Beau had taken to calling me Sia since he found out my real name and because I wore masks. He was devastated when he found out I couldn’t carry a tune.

“Youarerich.” I rolled my eyes.

“I could always be richer.” He grinned over his glass. “Do we need to get lawyers involved?”

“Maybe a therapist,” I said, jokingly.

“I have the perfect person, she is amazing,” Beau said, opening his phone and typing away. “She is a little pricey, but definitely worth it. She’s also the sweetest person.”

My phone pinged notifying me that he had sent her contact info.

“Thanks, B,” I said, debating if I needed to call her. “I just don’t know how to navigate these feelings I am having. They aren’t what I had expected.”

He raised his brows at me and I knew I had fucked up.

“They and feelings,” he said with a giddy expression. “What have you gotten yourself into, Sia?”

“I have no idea,” I said, hoping he didn’t say anything.

“I didn’t realize it was an admirer's night again.” A man came up to us and I froze. “I loved seeing you last time and I wish I could have had some time to also speak with you.”

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