Page 117 of Pucking Obsessed

But Robyn didn’t.

D’Angelodidn’t.

Perhaps, D’Angelo needs to know the same?

I bite my lip.

The night is freezing. I rub my hands against the cold.

I’m standing by myself on the flat roof of Captain’s Hall.

I’m dressed in my favorite scarlet, silk shirt, black leather jacket, and jeans. Eden has retouched my metallic nail varnish and added smoky eyeliner for me.

I’m dolled up as sexily as possible for Robyn’s surprise birthday drinks.

Who’d have thought that my Robyn was birthdayphobic?

D’Angelo is still showering, since I sneaked in to take mine first.

Stealth showering is one of my talents.

Eden has taken refuge in our bedroom. He’s decided, after an entire day of tearing himself apart, that his anxiety is too high to go with us tonight.

He’s ashamed of that decision. He’s pretending to be buried in a book.

Books are his shield.

Why face the real world, when you can hide in a book?

I use the stars in the same way. And sometimes Netflix.

I tip my head back to study the stars. They will always be my escape. They have been since I was a kid.

Somehow, your own problems don’t feel as large, when you realize now large the universe is.

What’s better is that it doesn’t cost anything to study them. I’m not sure that I’ll ever get used to dating a millionaire or the type of wealth that’s around me.

I’ve always had to find my enjoyment for free: running in the open, drawing, and watching old horror movies.

The world is a brilliant and beautiful place.

I’ve faced the worst monsters. But I’ve survived.

Every day, I’m floored by how fresh the air smells, the brightness of the leaves on the trees, the fluttery sensation in my stomach each time that Robyn smiles at me.

I have a new home, family, and life.

See?Brilliant and beautiful.

Last night, however, the Predators savaged us because the Bay Rebels acted like prey.

D’Angelo is an amazing captain, man, and boyfriend.

He holds the team together. When he falls apart, the rest of the team try everything that they can to rally around because they respect the shit out of him.

But it wasn’t enough.

I still don’t know what happened, apart from the fact that the man I love more than life itself freaked out.

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