We inched past the accident, and regular traffic resumed after the lanes expanded again. Killian shook his head, and the car sped up as he released my hand so that he could keep both hands on the steering wheel.
“It’s not your fault, Lilah,” he said gently. “But if I had to guess, that’s what the conversation was about. The only time that Oliver and Emmett clash is when they’re talking about Jack.”
There was an undercurrent in his voice that made my ears perk up, my instincts ringing that there was clearly more to the story, but I didn’t push. I barely evenknewthis manorhis pack, after all. What right did I have to ask him about their deeply personal history?
None—that was the answer to that question.
Killian’s hand slid up the back of my neck and threaded through my hair, and the touch comforted me as we made our way to the suburb where I lived with my mother. I’d already texted Eddie to make sure she knew I was safe and would be home shortly, and she had alreadydemandedthat I call her as soon as I checked in with my mom so that she knew what had happened after I left Fracture.
How was I going to tell her everything that had happened? It felt like the last twelve hours had been a hazy dream, and the only proof that everything had actually happened was the man sitting beside me.
“I probably shouldn’t have come home with you last night,” I mused, pointing to the upcoming turn into my neighborhood.
I didn’t need to be looking at him to feel Killian’s gaze burning into the side of my face or the tension in his fingers where they were cupped against the back of my head.
“Why do you say that?”
His voice was low and dangerous, making something in my belly curl up, warm and safe. The fact that this man sounded like he could just as easily rip my throat out as he could kiss me shouldnothave been a turn-on. I wasn’t going to argue with myself, though—not when I was only wearing his shirt and a pair of boxers that I’d had to pin snug around my waist, and he would be able to scent even a hint of arousal in the tiny space of the car.
“It’s causing problems in the pack,” I pointed out. “Obviously.” Then I glanced out the window and pointed again. “It’s the blue house at the end of the street.”
Killian pulled in front of the house I indicated, then killed the engine. He stared out the windshield, and though I knew I should get out and say goodbye, I didn’t.
I couldn’t stand the look on his face, the torn expression of guilt and longing. Unbidden, a low whine rose in my throat that vibrated through the air and made me clap my hand over my mouth.
Killian’s head snapped to me, and a small smile tugged at his lips as I stammered, “I’m...sorry, I don’t know what that was. I’ve...I’ve never made that sound before.”
He chuckled softly, turning to face me fully before he reached up with his other hand to gently thumb at my lower lip. “That’s anomega sound,” he informed me. “You felt that one of your alphas was upset, and you wanted to soothe me.”
I furrowed my brow; I was no stranger to being a wolf, of course, but all the new dynamics that came with being anomegamade my head spin. “But...you’re not my alpha. Not formally.”
Killian cocked his head to the side, his gaze boring into me from behind his glasses. He stroked his thumb across my lower lip, the fingers of his other hand flexing against the back of my head as he leaned in. His scent filled my nose, dizzying me, and his breath fanned out over my face as he murmured, “Does it feel like I’m not your alpha, baby girl?”
The question was low and neutral, posed innocently enough, but I could feel the vibration of madness, hunger, and desire behind it. Killian’s eyes were intense on mine, and I felt another whine building in my throat, begging me to lean in and appease this alpha.
I whimpered, and Killian’s green eyes flashed, a smirk tugging at his lips before he leaned forward and crushed our lips together. The kiss was aggressive and almost feral, and I whimpered again as my hands shot out and curled in his shirt, pulling him as close as humanly possible with the center console between us.
Killian’s tongue slid along my lower lip, and I whined, low in my throat, as I kissed back with everything that I had. The conversation we’d just been having faded from my mind, and all I knew was how he felt, his scent in my nose, and my instincts screaming, “Mine.”
Killian broke the kiss, and his lips trailed down my jawline, his hands working in tandem to tip my head back and bare mythroat. I allowed it, of course, and my eyes fell half shut as he nosed at the soft spot where my pulse thudded, breathing in my scent and letting out a low growl that vibrated all the way down to my pussy.
I clenched, and the scent of my arousal was unmistakable and heavy in the car. I squirmed a little in his grip, and the slick slide of my folds between my legs was enough to make my cheeks burn with desperate, aroused humiliation.
“Fuck,” Killian groaned, mouthing at my pulse, the scrape of his blunt teeth against my skin scattering my thoughts even more.
It also reminded me of a question I’d had earlier. It had faded from my mind while we’d had the very serious conversation about their former packmate.
“Killian?” I desperately tried not to let my voice be breathy and needy, but I only half succeeded.
He lifted his head, his pupils dilated in his green eyes as he looked at me. “Yes?” His voice was low and husky, and as I watched him, his eyes flashed alpha gold, signaling how closehewas to losing control as well.
That thought made my wolf whine, but I didn’t give in to the hormones. Instead, I swallowed and asked, “Why didn’t...Oliver fuck me last night? Why didn’t any of you?”
I stumbled a little over the word “fuck”, but Killian didn’t seem perturbed. Instead, he cocked his head to the side, and a small smirk tugged at his lips.
“Are you saying that youwantedto lose your virginity to three alphas you’d only just met...on the top of our dining room table?”
I flushed a little at the thought of them being so overcome with instinct and arousal that they wouldn’t have had anychoicebut to take me in such a raw and primal way...and then my rational brain caught up with his words.