Page 76 of Conflicted

“Why don’t you find out?” he said.

I didn’t look away from him as my tongue flicked out over one of them. Nox’s smirk deepened. Wanting more, I introduced my teeth to the mix, tugging gently at the piercing.

I was rewarded with a low groan, Nox’s cock twitching against my stomach.

“Guess the answer to that is yes.”

I didn’t bother waiting for his reply, going back to his nipple. I sucked at it, toying with the pebbled nub with my tongue before tugging at it with my teeth once more.

When Nox was vibrating beneath me, I switched to the other one. I took my time, dragging every drop of pleasure out of Nox until he couldn’t bear it any longer.

“Stop,” he gasped, his hands touching my hair. “Fuck, little angel. You’re driving me crazy.”

I reluctantly released his nipple, resting my chin on his chest. “Good. Now you know how I’ve felt since the day we met.”

He stroked my hair. “Fuck, why can’t we keep this casual? It was easier when it was just hate fucking.”

“I’m sorry.”

“No,” he said fiercely, his hand sliding down to grab my throat. “You don’t apologise to me, remember?”

I wanted to say something sweet. To thank him for being the one person to never ask anything from me, who recognised the shapes I contorted myself into for other people.

But that would keep us in that dangerous place we were trying to escape. We couldn’t stay there.

No matter how much we might want to.

“Hate fuckingisfun,” I drawled, determined to get us back on track. “But I seem to recall you’re the only one who got to do the actual fucking.”

“Are you saying you want to top?” Nox’s hands stroked over where my cock was pressed against my jeans. Unlike him, I was still fully dressed. My shirt was open, but that was about it. For obvious reasons, I wasn’t planning on getting naked. “Because I have to admit, I’ve thought about it.”

I whimpered, grinding against his hand. “You have?”

“Yes. I don’t bottom often, but there’s something about your cock…” He flicked open the button on my jeans, carefully lowering the zip. I moaned as my erection was released, his fingers deftly pulling back my foreskin. “It’s a thing of beauty. I want you to fill me up with it.”

My breathing turned ragged as he started to stroke me. His other hand clasped my hip as he said, “I want to feelwhat these can do. To know how hard you can fuck when you put your mind to it.”

He wasn’t done there, his hand drifting up my body until it was resting on my throat. Nox used his grip to tug me down until I was covering him. My eyes rolled back in my head. How the fuck was I supposed to not let this become intimate when he was giving me everything I’d ever wished for?

“Most of all though, I want to see you lose control. You spend your life keeping it all under wraps, but I want to unravel you. I want to see what you’re keeping hidden from everyone.”

It wasn’t what he’d intended, but Nox’s words finally helped me find the distance I’d been searching for. No one could ever learn of my secret. I’d carry it with me to my eternal grave.

Nox might have been my fated mate, but he couldn’t know what happened to me in Emilio’s lair. If he learned of my failures, it would colour his view of me. I didn’t want that. I wanted to look back on this night fondly. To remember the joy we gave each other, even if it was only for a brief moment.

“Let’s see if I can deliver.” I sat up, reaching into my back pocket for the lube I’d stashed there earlier. “I’m not sure if you’re good enough to make me lose control though. It is legendary, after all.”

A small furrow appeared between Nox’s brows, like he sensed something had shifted.Please don’t call me on it.

Thankfully, he didn’t. Instead, he pulled his own shutters down. “We’ll see.”

I wanted to kiss him while I prepped him, but I knew my weak self-control wouldn’t survive it. Instead, Idropped to my knees, taking his cock into my mouth as I worked him open with my fingers.

His cock was deliciously heavy on my tongue. I savoured the taste, knowing this was an experience I wouldn’t be repeating, but would definitely be revisiting in the lonely hours of night. I explored each of his piercings, my hole clenching as I remembered how they felt inside me.

Nox’s hips were rocking in time with his moans. When I crooked my finger in search of that soft bundle of nerves, I was rewarded with a thick burst of precum.

“Enough.” His big hands tugged at my hair. He wriggled up the bed, beckoning me to join him. “I need you in me, little angel.”

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