Page 21 of Rediscovering Rubi

“You sure?” he asked. “You’re not crashing?”

“No, babe. I’m really, really good. What about you?”

“Me? I’m great.”

“Logan. I know Tops can drop, too. You have a few times before, even though you never quite admitted it. But I know you. I could see it. And it’s been so long since we played like that.”

“I’m good; I promise. The times I dropped a little were after some really hard scenes, but we took it fairly easy last night. And scening with you made me feel like we were bonding in that deep way again.”

“Like we used to,” she murmured, shifting to lay her head on his chest, and he slid his palm up and down her spine, stroking her skin.

And for some reason she didn’t quite understand, her eyes stung with tears again. She sniffed.

“Darlin’? What’s going on? I thought you weren’t crashing.”

“I don’t know,” she admitted.

He was quiet a moment. Then, “Do you think it’s just a sort of overload of emotions?”

She thought it over. “Yes, maybe. Probably. I mean, it’s been such a long time since we’ve connected on that level, as you said. And since we played at all. Maybe I am dropping a bit. I haven’t had that level of endorphins flood my brain in such a long time. But I’m okay. You’re here with me.”

He gave her a squeeze. “Yeah, I am. And we’re here for another few weeks. We’ll have lots of time together, just us. Or you can spend some time hanging out with your new friends.”

“I might. But right now, all I want is to be with you.”

He kissed the top of her head. “So, I think we should talk about last night. The way we used to go over our scenes the next day. Do a thorough check-in.”

“Okay. But you start while I lay here and try to re-center myself.”

“Sure, I can start. Well, it was incredible for me. Every moment of it. The way you looked in the cuffs. In that sexy-as-fuck lingerie. Jesus, babe!”

“Really?” she asked, feeling silly at the way his words made her smile.

“Hell, yeah. You were so fucking gorgeous. And so responsive. I didn’t know how you’d react to being bound, to impact play. But it almost felt as if we were back in the old days.”

“It took me a little bit to get my head into the right space to sort of… accept what was happening. To remember how. But before I knew it, subspace just hit me and there was really no fighting it.” She turned onto her side and looked up at him. “I was pretty worried about that.”

“That you wouldn’t be able to reach subspace?”

“Yes, that, and being able to take pain. To enjoy it. But I really, really did.”

“Yeah, that was pretty obvious. You were so damn wet, baby,” he said, finishing on a low growl.

She giggled and immediately felt self-conscious. “Sorry. I don’t mean to sound like some swooning teenager.”

“Ireallylike having my wife swoon over me,” he told her, that growl still in his voice. “In fact, it makes me hard as fuck.”

“Oh, does it now?” she asked, her entire system instantly heating.

“Come here, wife,” he demanded, rolling over and shifting her body until she was under him. “I’m going to fuck you again right now.”

“Are you?” she asked, teasing him.

As if I want anything else right now.

“Mmm, yes. I’ll apologize later for my morning breath.”

“I really don’t care at the moment.”

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