When they weren’t working for Saint, they were helping Darth and Seb who worked for my father as owners of Lumière Noire House, an art history museum, gallery, and theater that was a front for laundering drug money to make illicit funds appear legitimate through performances of the arts.
A lot had changed in my life since Mia moved overseas for her job and I last hung out with all the Solomon brothers. Including taking the Crowne last name and ridding myself of the burden of people believing I was related to that asshole my mom married.
“I remember when we went skydiving together,” Key stated, interrupting my thoughts. “You asked me to take you and Mia on your eighteenth birthday.”
“One of the best birthday gifts I’ve ever gotten.”
He grinned. “Being in the air on the brink of freefalling is the best kind of high there is.”
No, your infectious personality is better.
“Do you remember when we won that dance competition in high school?” Seb asked, causing my head to tilt his way.
“Of course I do.”
“It was a great time,” he said, smirking in a boyish way that made him look like the teen I crushed on back then. “I may be quiet most of the time, but dancing lets me express myself in ways that words escape me.”
I smiled, recalling how everyone was shocked when a junior agreed to team up with a freshman.
“Me too. Especially when life gets difficult. You need an outlet for your frustration and an escape from reality. That’s why I also love impromptu road trips so much.”
“Freedom,” Darth muttered, his deep voice warming my entire body. “Unplanned road trips break up the monotony of everyday life, while also giving you a chance to clear your mind on the open roads.”
“You’re a large part of the reason why I did a solo road trip around the States after I graduated college.”
Darth’s stoic facial expression didn’t change, but it was the slight glint in his eyes that let me know he appreciated me divulging that information.
“You were in LA,” Cash stated, contemplative eyes holding mine when he stepped into my line of vision. “It was during a pit stop on your road trip when we met up to attend a comedy show together since I was in town.”
I grinned. “And we laughed all damn night at how terrible some of the comedians were. It was the perfect release for the stress I felt after my car breaking down and pushing back my journey to Arizona. But that’s the beauty in finding time to laugh even when the jokes aren’t funny. It gives you a beautiful release.”
Sighing, I took a seat in the chair next to the one Seb had vacated. “I guess what I’m saying is that even though you’re Mia’s brothers, the four of you have always been good friends of mine as well. At first, I needed some time to wrap my head around everything. I was nervous that I wasn’t ready to be a mother and was still healing from past trauma. But now I know it’s going to be okay. Healing is a constant process. And I’m as prepared as I’ll ever be. I’m excited to be a mom and give my child all the love that I never got growing up. I promise each of you that if you do me this favor, I can handle it from there.”
I refused to cry and go down an emotional rabbit hole about my circumstances. Therapy was helping me make large strides, but I still tended to smile through my pain and feign a bubbly persona to make others feel more comfortable and at ease.
Darth’s voice was low and steady when he said, “If you think for one second that we’re letting you face this shit alone, you’re wrong.”
“And if you think this ends with just one of us,” Cash added, his tone sharp as glass, “you’re even more wrong.”
Seb’s voice was softer, but no less intense. “We’ll give you everything you want, everything you need. But we can’t just give you our sperm.”
Key’s devilish smile turned feral as he stepped closer, his heated gaze devouring me. “In so many ways, you’ve always been ours, Firefly.” He leaned down as I remained rooted in my seat. “If you want one of us to knock you up, we’ll do it the old-fashioned way.”
My lips parted in aroused surprise. “You want to have sex with me?”
“I’ve wanted to fuck you since we were teenagers,” Key admitted, glancing around the room at his brothers. “We all have, some of us just got to you first.”
My breath caught in my throat, my heart pounding like a war drum as I faced the storm I’d unleashed on the Solomon brothers. In that moment, I knew there was no going back. But for the first time in a long time, I didn’t want to tread lightly.
They all want to fuck me.And on everything unholy, I wanted them to destroy my body until I couldn’t walk for days. Still, it all sounded a bit messy and right now, I didn’t really want more chaos in my life.
“Stop overthinking Nyxani,” Seb directed, reading my mind yet again. “Key’s right. We all care about you and we don’t want you going through this alone.”
“Are you sure?” I asked, standing from my seat and failing at not checking out how sexy Key’s muscles contracted beneath his long-sleeved shirt as he helped me up. “Maybe you all need to talk about it without me being around just to be sure.”
“We’re sure,” Cash stated, leaving his spot from the wall and stopping when he reached me. I didn’t expect him to grip my chin to tilt up my face, nor did I expect his thumb to brush against my lips.
On instinct, I dipped out my tongue, licking the skin of his finger and earning me a grunt of approval from him.Don’t think. Just feel.