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“Baby girl, I’ve had your pussy in my mouth. You’ve come all over my cock, and you think I’d be embarrassed to buy what you need? You’re dead wrong.” Nat smiles, and it melts my goddamn heart. How can something so perfect be mine? How did I get so lucky?

Chapter 20

Natasa

Everything is perfect. So why do I feel so bad? Why do I feel like something is wrong? Why can’t I shake these feelings I have?

It’s been months. Months! And I still can’t seem to shake the odd feeling in the pit of my stomach. I know it’s not about Clark, but it’s something.

I’m due any day now. Actually, I’m overdue by three days. The doctor told me not to worry about it since this is my first baby, but I still worry.

“You need to calm down,” Gunner tells me one more time. He’s been telling me as I’ve been pacing the room all day.

“What if I’m not good at this? What if I’m a bad mom?”

“You couldn’t be. You’re a great person, Nat. You love that baby already, and he isn’t here yet.”

“It doesn’t matter how much you love someone, Gunner, you can still hurt them.”

“Why would you? Come on, baby girl. Don’t do this to yourself.” He walks over, pulls me into his arms, and holds me.

“I’m just scared, Gunner. I don’t want to mess this up.”

“You’re not goin’ to. We got this. I promise.” I let him hold me a little longer and I try to breathe. I know he’s probably right, but I still can’t shake the feelings. Gunner keeps me tucked in tightly as I begin to feel some pain. I don’t say anything at first because I don’t know what it is.

“What did she say I would feel?”

“Why? What are you feelin’?”

“Cramps? I don’t know. It just hurts.” Gunner pulls back and rests his hand on my stomach as he looks at me.

“Your stomach is hard,” he says. “Probably a contraction.”

“How are you so calm about this? I’m freaking out, Gunner. I don’t know if I can do this. Push a whole baby out of me?” Now he chuckles.

“You’ll do fine, baby girl.”

“Oh my god, would you stop! You don’t know if I’ll do fine, Gunner!”

“Yeah, I kinda do. You’re strong and can handle this.”

“I’m not that strong,” I argue as another wave of pain hits me. I rest my hand on my stomach as I glance over at him.

“Another one?” I nod my head. He pulls his phone out and makes a call as I walk over and sit on the edge of the bed. I’ve never done this before. I don’t know what to expect. I’m nervous as hell, and he’s just so … calm.

“Doc said we have a while, or we can head to the hospital now,” he informs me as he shoves the phone back into his pocket.

“I don’t want to wait. Let’s go,” I tell him as I shove myself back up.

“Nat, you have time.”

“And I said I don’t want to wait.” Gunner nods his head and walks to the closet, pulling out the bags he helped me pack. Hetosses them over his shoulder, grabs my hand, and leads me out of the room and down the hall.

“What’s going on?” Kiki asks when she sees us.

“Nat’s havin’ contractions,” Gunner tells her.

“Oh my god, is it baby time?” Kiki squeals.

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