Page 92 of Collateral Damage

We are one of the same now and I intend on giving her every piece of me.

C H A P T E R 54

MY BEGINNING

Puppeteer

Play - ‘I’ll be good - James Young’

After years of searching for a reason, a purpose, constantly a means to an end, chasing my revenge to fuel my ugly appetite, I never stopped to admire the beauty life captures when you're not looking. How it grows and is constantly changing. You cannot grow if you're stuck in time dwelling on shit that cannot be changed. This? This can be changed. And suddenly I'm ready to sacrifice everything I have to be by her side until the day I leave this god forsaken world. I tried to do the right thing. I tried to be selfless and it almost got her fucking killed. I almost lost her and now I realize, that pain. It doesn’t ever leave, no matter what road you try and take, no matter how deeply you try to avoid it, even letting them go leaves a gaping hole in your heart. I refuse to feel that kind of pain again. So I'll be selfish and I'll give her what she wants.

Me.

I'll give her Me.

“Run away with me.” Her eyes bulge, peering up at me with puffy cheeks and bloodshot eyes as her pupils dilate.

“But you-”

“I know what I said. And I've changed my mind.” I cup her hair behind her ear, admiring every inch of her in my shirt, hotand messy from taking every inch of me and if she wasn't so exhausted I'd happily go again just to hear her cry my name again. And again. Until she had no voice left.“I almost lost you today. And I haven't felt that frightened since the night my mom died.” I can see tears creep into her waterline, like she's relieved to finally hear me confess my feelings and I hate it but that realisation she's holding on her face is a picture I'll never get tired of looking at.

“I realise now that I can't breathe without you. And I'm selfish. I want this.I want us, I want you, I was just afraid you would run when you learnt the depths of my past so I pushed you away before you could hurt me first and in doing so I hurt you further. I was wrong to ever let you go. I was wrong to push you away, I was wrong to hurt you like I did.Alora.And because of me, you were almost -” I choke back the words I was going to say, hurting my jaw at how tightly I’m clenching it, knowing that it all could have gone all so terribly fucking wrong if I hadn’t of trusted my gut. It's like I could feel her crying out to me. I left not long after she did and I know that deep down I wouldn’t have let her get far but just the thought that I could have stared at that door for hours before eventually letting my heart speak for me, knowing that if I left it ten minutes, thirty minutes, an hour.Hours. If I was a minute longer he would have ploughed himself inside of her and I would have been too late. What if it was hours later?

My attention is diverted as tears break down her temples, reaching for my cheek like she can see I’m lost in my own head and I brave it just this once and let her, grinding my teeth at the sensation.

“It’s not your fault…” She whispers through the silence and her words alone make me want to cry. I want to cry. Fuck I want to cry. But I can’t. She doesn’t realise how all of this is my fucking fault. She can’t see the damage I leave behind. She’sso glued to this redemption inside of me that everything else is irrelevant. Her empathy will kill her.I will kill her.

“Even broken you continue to find something in me worth fighting for. Even after everything, you look at me like I'm somebody.” Like right now. She's looking at me like I'm her entire fucking existence and it's a power I cannot compete against. HerLoveis finally gripping me by the fucking throat and I'll happily choke just to feel it. “I will never let you out of my sight again, do you hear me?” I slide my forearm underneath her upper body to grip her scalp, drowning in her sighs as she sings for me. I barely have to touch her and she's a pile of mush.

I never thought it would come to this, she wasn't even supposed to exist but here she is in my bed ready to sacrifice everything her life has to offer her just to be with me and I'm still trying to get my head around it. But I'm sure we'll make it work. I'll make it fucking work. Because for the first time in a long time I see something worth fighting for and I'll happily destroy anything that tries to get in the way of that.

“Where would we go?”

“Anywhere you want.” I'm fuelled with this sickness she's pumping inside me, chasing her mouth to taste her again. Her body is my elixir and I can't get enough. Gripping her head tighter with every stroke of my tongue. I feel my heart escalate as her hands find my torso, caressing me gently but it feels like razor blades against my skin. Biting down on her bottom lip I transfer my irritation as I brace her warm fingers, trying to focus on our kiss.

“I don't care as long as it's with you.” My chest throbs and I don't think it's possible to devour her any more than I have but I want to. I want to be her fucking throne.

Play – ‘Over me – Camylio’

I roll onto my side, dragging her with me until she's straddling my waist, squinting at my size as I stretch her out, knowing she is already too fucked out, gripping my abs to keep her up right.

“Oh- my god! Hayden! What are you-”

“Sit on my face.” She glares at me, terrified to move and it's adorable, really.But I'm not fucking joking.“Sit on my fucking face.”

I need her in my mouth, I need to show her how sorry I am with my tongue. I want her to suffocate me with her pleasure as she rides my jewels. I want her to know that I will happily fall underneath her mercy. I grip underneath her thighs, pulling myself down between her legs as I hoist her up the bed until she stumbles for the bedframe.

“Hayden!-” My hands run the length of her frame, memorising her curves as I grip the squishy flesh on her hips, sinking my fingers into the warm creases of her thighs as she hovers above my face, still dripping for me, I lap up her arousal with the tip of my tongue already drawing out a sigh as she clings to the metal work.

“Sit down and shut up.” She gasps as I force her to meet my mouth, sliding my tongue through her folds with sheer depravity, cuddling her clit between the slit, already groaning at her honey in my mouth making her relax into me like a good girl. She is already quivering as I attack her sensitive parts, sucking her clit softly to force a whine out of her that makes me throb painfully.

“Ha-ys…” Her whimpers make me dizzy, tightening my hold as she begins to grind against my face, smirking as her needy cunt rides my tongue.

“I want you to show me just how needy you are for mebaby girl.” She grips the metal, quickening her pace as she gets lost in this euphoria between her legs, giving her body to me once more.Its fucking delicious, looking up at my shrine dancing against my face like a goddess, moving like water as she rolls her body to the rhythm of my strokes.

“Good girlPuppet. Tell me you'reMine.” My thumbs run her centre line, cupping her tits in my hands, a perfect fit as they mould to my hold. I graze her nipples lightly almost immediately pushing her over the edge, watching her kick her head back, filling up the rooms with my new favourite sound.

“Tell me.”I plead, craving to hear those words pour from her lips as she whimpers.

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