Page 31 of Perfidious Passion

"Whoa, Caleb," Dean scolds, frowning at his twin with shock and annoyance, I think. I’m not sure. It's hard to tell through the blur of hurt.

"Shit," Caleb curses and throws himself at my feet. On his knees, with his hands on my thighs, he apologizes. "I'm sorry, Lilly. I'm so sorry for yelling at you. It infuriates me that you can't see how important you are to us."

"Welovehow much you love and care about us, baby," Dean coos, stroking my wet cheek. "But it's time you start putting yourself first like Caleb said. You are so damn sweet and thoughtful. We just want you to treat yourself the way you treat us."

Frowning, I hang my head again.How do I do that?

"What are you thinking?" Aaron asks, tapping my chin so I look up at him.

I nibble my lip to fight the wobble of my bottom lip. "I don't know how to do that. How do I make myself realize I am enough?"

"Therapy," Dean answers confidently.

Caleb nods enthusiastically. "I was wondering if you could go to couples counseling with me, Lil? I love you so much. So much so that my emotions are entwined with yours, and I think I need help to navigate that aspect of our life together."

"We all want to go," Aaron adds, dropping a kiss on Caleb's temple.

I look between the three of them. "You've discussed this?"

"Yes. Baby..." Dean swallows and shifts, so he's completely facing me now. "You didn't tell us what was going on, and we didn't notice anything besides you having a bad anxiety week. We all could benefit from talking to someone."

His explanation slowly settles into my brain. "You're right," I whisper, tears building again. "My self-worth has taken a nosedive again, and it's tainting the way I'm perceiving stuff. I'm so sorry."

"You are forgiven." The one who says it is the one I needed to hear that the most from. Aaron. "Can you forgive us?"

"There's nothing?—"

"Don't finish that statement, Lilly," Caleb grounds out. "We didn't protect you or even realize what was upsetting you. We are absolutely at fault for not being there for you."

Relenting and allowing them to carry the blame for something they feel they should have done this past week is freeing. I can't absolve them of their guilt if it isn't misplaced, but I can accept their point of view and help us all move forward. "I forgive you."

"Now tell me what you want me to do, Lil Lilly." Aaron's watching me with pride in his eyes, drawing me in until I'm climbing into his lap.

The words are well and truly stuck in my throat. I can't get them to come out, not wanting to risk saying the wrong thing. Aaron raises a brow and pushes my hips down until my core grinds against his thickening cock.

A breath escapes me, one that was being held with my wants and needs. "I’d rather you not work there anymore. It makes me uncomfortable."

"Good girl," Caleb hums behind me, and I feel a tug on my panties beneath Dean's long-sleeved T-shirt I was wearing. My bare thighs are forced to widen when Caleb dives beneath me to free Aaron's cock from his sweatpants.

"What are you doing?" I moan as Aaron's grip on me forces me back down. "Mmm."

"Rewarding our dirty girl." Caleb's breath fans over my lower back, then his hands spread my ass cheeks wide.

"Caleb," I gasp and choke when his husband enters my dripping pussy. With Aaron groaning into my chest, I curl around him and hold on tight as we rock gently against each other. Tears drip into his dirty blond locks, and I can't hold in my anguished whimper as all my emotions hit me like a freight train.

Dean comes into view, brushing my flyaways off of my tear-soaked cheeks and nose. "What's worrying you, baby girl?"

My chin quivers. Then Dean's kissing me until I'm drowning in love. When he pulls away, he takes my words with him. "I'm making him give up his dream, D."

Dean's eyes soften. He moves when Aaron lifts his head and thrusts into me with a gentle stroke. "Lilly, I love you."

The tears start anew as he makes love to me with my other guys' hands caressing every inch of me. "I love you too. I love the three of you so much I don't know what to do with myself."

Aaron blinds me with a smile I so rarely see. "You let us love you back, my love."

His kiss sears my soul like a brand of passion, opening my heart up to what he's suggesting. When he puts it like that, it sounds easy. I'll let my men love me as I learn to love myself. It won't be easy. I have a long road ahead of me to understand andmanage my anxiety, but I want to be loved, not only by Dean, Aaron, and Caleb, but by myself too.

"And Lilly?"

"Hmm?" I hum, fluttering on his cock as we hold each other together, and the twins continue to piece me back together one caress at a time.

Aaron adds the final broken piece of me, molding me back together with his words. "Books, writing, editing? Those are my aspirations. You, my love. You, Caleb, and Dean are my dream. Lilly, you're my dream and my passion."

I believe him.

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