Page 58 of Captivating

“Then trust that we don’t have to rush the start when the good stuff is going to last us till we’re old and gray and pissing off your brother with the way I still can’t keep my hands off you. Trust us to know when it’s right. You’re on tour for ten months...”

My heart is breaking in my chest.

Cracking in half and shattering.

“I could come home between cities?—”

“No, you can’t. That’s exactly what you can’t do. Give this tour everything it deserves. You’ve worked your perfect ass off for this forever. Find me when you come home. I’ll still be right here.”

“And you’ll be mine?” I breathe out, terrified that we’re never going to get this moment back.

“I’ve always been yours.”

“Oh. My. God. How did you go from that to hating him?” Addie asks through a sniffle, pulling me out of the memory, and I wipe my tear-stained cheeks.

Damn it. This is why I don’t go back there. I can’t.

I push it all back down into that little box and shove it to the deepest recesses of my brain. “And then he showered, and we went to Gia Petrillo’s party where I caught Killian and Gia fucking against the pool house.”

“Shut up,” she all but screams, and Lennox whines and shifts.

“Nope.” I shake my head slowly, forcing myself not to relive the pain. “I saw it and left, and the next day, we got into a huge fight.” I stand with the baby in my arms and sway, hoping it will calm both of us down. “It went downhill from there.”

“Well hell, Lilah. You guys have never talked about it since?”

I shake my head, wishing there was a different answer. Hell, she watches me like she’s expecting a different answer. Like there’s going to be some misunderstanding that’s going to make it all better. But there’s not. “I cried every day for a month, but it didn’t change anything.”

I wish it had.

Scottie

Iris confirmed the tour dates.

Lilah

And?

Scottie

First stop is the Wednesday after the fight.

Lilah

How long will I be gone?

Scottie

Seven weeks. With breaks in-between. You could fly home a few times if you want to.

Lilah

Okay.

Scottie

You gonna tell me we need a new band leader?

Lilah

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