I am barely able to hold back the groan, especially after her words penetrate my mind. “Dessert is sex?”

Astrid glances away before meeting my gaze again. “In this particular case, it does.”

“Are you sure?”

She nods. “I’m very sure. We love each other and we’re mates. I know I’ve been holding back the last week, but that’s because itfelt weirdly wrong to jump into having sex with someone right after my husband died. Even if he deserved what happened. I don’t know why we’ve waited, but I just couldn’t. Thank you for being so patient with me.”

“You are worth being patient for. There is nothing I will not do for you and that includes waiting for us to become mates in truth until you were ready. We have the rest of our lives to mate.”

“I want you, Evren. I want to make love with you. Completely and wholly,” Astrid tells me. “No more fooling around. I need to feel you inside me.”

Instead of answering her, I claim her mouth with mine and sweep my tongue inside. She said that the dessert happens after the picnic, but in this case we will have our dessert first.

Chapter 20

Astrid

It’s been a week of foreplay and I’m ready to fully become Evren’s mate.

There’s a part of me that’s worried I won’t be able to please him. I’ve never been very good at sex, but I want him more than I’ve wanted anything in my life. I want to put my past behind me and move forward with the man—male—I love.

Evren kisses me like it’s the last time we’ll ever kiss. I’m swept up in the emotion of it and I press my pelvis more fully into him. The damp heat between my thighs is getting wetter and my clit throbs with need. I feel so empty, and the only person who can satisfy my need is Evren.

Our tongues glide against one another and he deepens the kiss. It’s almost as though we’re both breathing the same air. A practiced stroke of my breast has me moaning into his mouth. All week we’ve been exploring each other’s body, learning how to please the other. Knowing how much it drives him wild, I stroke the tip of Evren’s pointy ear.

He growls against my lips and rocks his own pelvis causing his cock to slide up and down the seam of my pants. The head of it butts up against that pulsing bundle of sensitive nerves that, with only a few strokes, will send me over the edge. As anxious as I am to experience that release, I want to make this first time with my mate—with Evren—last as long as possible. I want us to soar together.

“You are so perfect,” he whispers into my mouth, flicking his tongue along mine and then sliding it over my front crooked teeth that he apparently loves so much.

With Evren, I actuallyfeelperfect. I’ve started loving my curves again. From the homage he pays to them, it’s more than clear he loves them too.

“I need to feel your skin against mine.” The buttery leather texture is decadent and I’ve spent hours just running my fingertips along it, navigating the scaled pattern that lines it. “Please.”

Together, we lift up my shift and pull it over my head. Evren’s become increasingly familiar with how to remove a human’s bra, and he quickly unclasps mine and tosses it off to the side. He covers my body with his and claims my mouth again. I rub my hardened and sensitive nipples against his chest, needing the friction. He complies by palming one of them in his large, calloused hand.

He molds my flesh and pinches the turgid tip between his fingers. It’s like a string’s been plucked that sends a vibration straight to my clit that pulses and throbs with a heavy need. I run my hands over Evren’s back, lingering at the two divots at the base of his spine before shifting a little farther down to the baseof his tail. Knowing how much it drives him wild, I squeeze it and then stroke up and down as far as I’m able to reach.

Evren groans and rocks his pelvis harder against me. “You will be my undoing,keeshla.”

“Good. We’ll be undone together.”

“There is nothing I wish for more than that.” Like he’s been doing this for years, he kisses his way down my chest and laps at my breasts, drawing the rigid tip into his mouth and sucking.

Tension builds within me and I’m riding a wave of pleasure so intense I know the crash is going to be epic. But right before it happens, Evren stops and kisses along the crest of my stomach. He flicks his tongue over my belly button and nibbles the skin around it.

“I love how soft and curved you are,” he says. “We fit together perfectly.”

We do, too. Almost like we were made for each other.

“Tell me what you need,keeshla.” His voice is rough and ragged like he’s barely holding onto his control.

“You. I need you.”

“Then you will have me.” He unsnaps my pants and tugs them down my legs and my feet taking my underwear with.

For a long, drawn out moment, he stares down at my core. Even in the dim light given off by the glowing vine, his blown pupils are obvious. The fact I’m the one who caused that makes me feel like a practiced seductress. While he continues staring at me, I know I should feel self-conscious about how long he drinks mein. Except the desire written on his face tells me Evren loves what he sees.

“Never have I seen a more beautiful creature than you, my Astrid. I will never get tired of looking at you, so long as we both shall live and beyond. You are absolute perfection and no male has been more blessed than I have been with you as my mate.”