Page 185 of Haunt Me

Am I at least your friend? Hated word.

Hated word

Hated word

Hated word

Heavenward

Heavenward

[Chorus 2]

I don’t think I have Greek blood in me

But you’ve made me into a poet, I swear, cause

Heaven is the moonlight on your collarbones

The little street that leads to your house

The steps, the door, the room where I can’t go

Heaven is the place I watch you get in

As I stay in my car and weep.

Oooooh ooooh

Oooh ooooh

Ooh ooh ooh

[Ending]

You said you didn’t want this

Baby, I heard you loud and clear

But I carried your books

and I met you in our woods

Once upon a time, remember?

So forgive me and forgive me

If I, if I can’t help myself

Forget myself and hate myself

And count this as a date.

And I want to live here forever.

thirty-six

I sing, I write, I record. I go on stage, I come back down and crash. Rinse, repeat. October turns to November. My phone stays quiet.