Page 36 of Restrained

Her tongue darts out over her bottom lip, and her voice cracks slightly as her eyes meet mine. “Don’t make a big deal out of this.”

I stare at her, dumbfounded. “You’re a . . .”

Her hands try to break free, but I don’t release her as her hips buck forward, encouraging me to move inside her. “Not anymore.”

How the fuck is this even possible?“How?” It’s a stupid fucking question, but it’s all I can say.

“Don’t worry about it.” Her head lifts, and her lips meet mine again. Her kiss is tentative, but it deepens and then turns heated again, but I don’t dare move my hips even if it physically hurts not to. “Fuck me, Hayden. Don’t let my first time be lame.”

I smirk against her lips, holding onto her wrists. I love and hate her fire. “Are you sure about this?”

I’m not cut out to be anyone’s first. I thought I was done with all that shit a decade ago. Her nose brushes mine as she nods her head, her hips again begging me to move.

I’m pissed at her for not telling me. I’m fucking furious that she let a prick like me be the first one inside her body. But I guess it’s a little too late for all that now, and fuck if I don’t feel a sick sense of pride as I pull my hips back, pulling almost entirely out of her and then pushing my cock into her again, stretching her and reveling in the way her hips move with mine.

I still don’t let go of her wrists, instead pressing them into the bed with each hard thrust that she meets each and every fucking time. I know it has to hurt, my cock isn’t small by any standards, and I can feel her body stretching to accommodate my size, but still she moans into my mouth, kissing me.

Her legs wrap around my ass, pushing me even deeper inside, and I feel her pussy pulse around me, telling me she’s close.

I feel the buildup inside me, knowing that I'm really fucking close to coming deep inside her.

Fuck! Condom. What the hell am I doing?

“Jesus, Hayden! I’m close,” she gasps, and I feel her tighten around me.

I groan, “Fuuuck.”

I don’t trust myself not to come when she doe,s and after one long stroke, I pull out of her, sliding along her slick pussy, but not going inside. I brush the head of my cock over her clit, sending a shockwave through us both and almost coming right then. I release one of her hands, snaking between our bodies and using my thumb to send her over the edge of the wave she’s riding. Her body jolts with pleasure underneath mine as I grind against her hip until jets of cum explode from my cock, wishing I was deep inside her.

I’m an irresponsible fucking prick, but I'm notthatirresponsible.

My body falls onto hers as we pant and lie in the mess from our fucking, ruining the expensive comforter that has never been used by a paying customer, but I couldn’t give a fuck.

“Wow,” she breathes softly.

I still have one of her wrists in my hand above her head and use my other arm to prop myself up to look down into her eyes. She’s flushed, beautiful, and naked under me.

A beautiful fucking liar.

“How could you not fucking tell me?”

I have no right to feel betrayed, but I fucking do. And now, I'm back to pissed the fuck off.

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My body is still trembling with small aftershocks from the orgasm that rolled through me. I can’t believe that just happened, but there was no part of me that wanted it to stop.

I was terrified the entire time that he would. I’ve never felt that way before. Totally out of control. Handing everything over to another human being and letting go.

It was addicting.

But the way he’s looking at me right now... That I can do without.

His handsome features are contorted in confusion and betrayal as he stares down at me, asking how I couldn’t tell him I was, in fact, an almost thirty-year-old virgin before tonight.

He’s not exactly looking at me like the freak I am, but I still don’t like it. “What does it matter, Hayden?”

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