Ben's gaze morphed from trepidation to bliss in a few strokes. "You feel amazing, baby. So tight on my cock."
I canted my hips to meet each thrust and closed my eyes to enjoy the glide of his cock in and out of me. Artificial lubricants had nothing on my mate's slick. It felt so good inside me.
He lifted on one elbow, changing the angle. I dropped my hands from his shoulders to his hips, pulling him tight against me. His cock hit my prostate just right, sending chills through my entire body.
I loved the sound of our bodies slapping together and the delicious smell of sex and slick as Ben neared his release. When he took my cock in hand, I saw stars behind my eyelids.
"Not gonna last, babe," he said. "Need you to come with me."
"F-u-u-ck." His words brought me to the edge, along with the glide of his thumb over the head of my cock as he nailed my prostate.
The stars were back behind my eyelids as pleasure roared through me, and hot cum jetted between us.
Ben's hip movements stuttered, and then he froze above me with a grunt.
My eyes were a little misty when I opened them. I cupped the back of his head and pulled him down for a kiss. He flopped on top of me, trapping my cock and expanding knot between us.
He chuffed a laugh. "Your knot tickles, baby."
"You wouldn't say that if it was inside you."
He groaned. "Is it weird that I want it now? I've dreaded having sex with an alpha all my life because they would want to knot me, but yours …"
He rolled off me, onto his side, and grasped the thickening girth near the base. His gaze was full of fire. "Do you have any alpha condoms in your fanny pack? If not, I can grab some at the lodge."
"We promised to stay here tonight," I reminded him.
He flopped onto his back with a sigh.
"We should sleep, anyway," I said. "It's been a long couple of days."
"When we get home," Ben promised, "I want this," he wrapped his fingers around my knot again, giving it a stroke, "inside me."
"Anything you want."
He rolled back toward me, resting his head on my shoulder and draping his leg over my cock, pinning it once more. "You mean that."
I couldn't really remember what I'd said, so I grunted in agreement.
"You'd do anything for me, even go back to Phoenix?"
"If that's what you wanted," I said. "I don't want to go. I would probably end up moving to California to be closer to you, but I wouldn't stalk you or anything. I'd just hope I came across your scent now and then."
"That's depressing." His breath ghosted across my chest when he laughed. "I don't want you to go back to Phoenix, either. I was thinking of setting you up in a hotel in Laguna Niguel while we get everything sorted between us."
"That sounds wonderful." It wasn't living with Ben, but it was the next best thing. I had permission to stay in his orbit. That was good enough for me.
13
BENJAMIN
Before I fell asleep,I checked flights to Orange County again. None were available. We had years to wait if we wanted to take the bullet train, so it would be back on the bus for us. There was one leaving at six, so I set my alarm for four to give us time to shower, dress, and eat.
When my alarm blared, I regretted my life decisions. Sane people didn't wake that early, not even to be somewhat on time to a family gathering.
Not wanting to be alone in my misery, I shoved Connor's shoulder. "Wake up, sleepyhead."
"Huh, what?" He rolled out of bed, both hands up, eyes wide and unseeing for a moment until he blinked. "Ben?"