Page 16 of Our Time

“You’re an idiot,” I whisper breathlessly, barely believing what I’m hearing. “No alpha could ever be better for me thanmyalpha.”

Ben grabs me around the waist and tugs me into his lap. We scoot back until he’s sitting up against the headboard of the bed with me straddling his legs. He holds me like that for a long time and I bury my nose against his throat, just breathing him in.

The weight of this secret is off of my shoulders and Ben is stillhere, he’s still holding me tight. Helovesme. Oh my god, I can’t believe he loves me back.

Ben is the one to break the silence. “If you’ll have me,” he starts to say, his voice breaking. He clears his throat. “I want to be your alpha, Ryder. For real. Would you let me finish the bond? Will you bite me back?”

Now it’s my turn to cry. Emotions hit me full force and I’m completely washed away in them. “Yes,” I say between stuttering breaths. “Yes, Ben. Please. I love you so much and want to be yours. Please.”

“You’re already mine,” he tells me, pulling me away from his throat so he can look at me. He touches my cheek gently before his hand moves lower, his thumb skimming over the mating bite that’s been hidden there for so long. “Now I want to be yours.”

I nod my head and lean into his touch. “Okay,” I whisper, gaining composure again. “Okay. That sounds good.”

“Come here,” he whispers and I lean down, kissing his lips. I get lost in the kiss, letting it sweep all of these emotions away until it’s just me and Ben. The past is behind us and all we can do is focus on the here and now. All of these years have left us longing for each other, it’s led us to where we are right now. We’re finally together and I don’t plan on wasting another moment thinking about what could have been.

My hands sweep over Ben’s chest, feeling his toned muscles. His tongue darts into my mouth and I moan, feeling my body shift from the stress of the unknown to the warmth of certainty as Ben kisses me.

My body is putty in his hands. All of the tension I was holding on to fades away until I’m completely at ease, completely pliant. He has me exactly where he wants me and I surrender fully to my alpha.

Ben pulls my shirt over my head, smoothing his hands over me. My skin pebbles and a shiver runs down my spine. Lust is building up within my belly, simmering just under the surface as we gently touch each other and trade soft kisses.

“What do you want?” I know Ben wanted to take things slow. I take a breath, clearing my head from the lust that’s threatening to drag me under. “We can keep taking things slow, Ben. Whatever you want.”

“Want you,” he says right away without even thinking. He pulls his glasses away and puts them on the bedside table before looking back up at me. “Please, Ryder. I wanna be inside you when you bite me.”

A moan leaves my lips without my permission and I have to close my eyes and focus on not immediately coming as those words hit me square in the chest. Fuck. Holy shit. I’ve wanted this for so long and I’m finally going to get it.

Instead of answering, I lean down and steal Ben’s lips in a fierce kiss. We carefully pull each other’s clothes away until we’re bare. There’s something so intimate about being completely naked with the person I’m completely and utterly in love with. There’s no more secrets, no more barriers between us. It’s just us.

Ben is beautiful in his nakedness. His body is toned and strong, his forearms covered with black ink, his dark hair a messy mop atop his head. He’s stunning. I don’t think I’ve ever been more attracted to a person than I am right now. My lust has never felt like this. It feels sopassionateinstead of mechanical.

“Can I make sure you’re ready?”

I nod my head, taking Ben’s wrist and guiding his hand back towards my ass. My breath is stolen from my chest as his finger touches my hole. The touch is barely there, tentative, nervous. My body warms further, overcome with emotions.

“That’s it,” I tell him, nodding down at him and giving him an encouraging smile. “Push it in. Finger me, Ben.”

Ben’s eyes go wide as he fingers me, his cheeks turning the prettiest pink color that runs over his throat and down to his chest. God, he looks amazing under me like this. I can’t seem to get enough. Our scents are mixing in the room, an intoxicating mix of wine and caramel. My mouth waters from it.

“That feels so good. Keep going.”

“Fuck,” Ben hisses out, his hips rising off the bed. His erection bumps against my ass cheek and I can’t help but let out an amused noise.

“Soon,” I tell him with a smile. “I promise.”

“Ass.”

“Well, if you are what you eat,” I say and we both giggle. I lean my forehead against his, the two of us smiling so wide at each other. I feel liberated. I feel free. I feel like nothing I’ve ever felt before and it’s special because it’sBenwho’s experiencing it right along with me.

“Are you ready?”

“Yeah. Gonna fuck you so good,” I tell him, giving his lips a quick peck before reaching back and guiding his cock to my ass. After taking a breath, I slowly slide down, taking him inside of myself.

“Oh,” Ben breathes. He closes his eyes tight, overcome with pleasure. I can relate becausefuck, this feels so fucking good. Exactly what I wanted, exactly what Ineeded.

The build up for this moment has been literal years in the making and the payoff is somehow even better than I dreamed.

I’ve had a lot of sex in my time. Sure, it felt good and left me feeling physically satisfied. But this? This is different than every time I’ve ever fucked before. This is leaving my chest feeling full with emotional satisfaction. Nothing has ever felt like this, nothing even comes close to comparison. The other times felt like fucking but this feels so much deeper than that. We’re not only making love, but we’re also connected emotionally, physically, hell, maybe even spiritually.

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