Page 68 of Big Red

None of that happened. Once Cindy was born, it was like I had become a ghost. All Red did was love and dote on her like I had been begging him to love and dote on me for years!

I know it sounds crazy to be jealous of your own daughter, but I started to regret having her. It did the complete opposite of what I thought would happen.

To make matters worse, Red never wanted to do anything. We used to party at least three times a week before Cindy was born. Red no longer cared about hanging out or having time alone with just me.

It was all about Cindy!

A year after she was born, I met Blaine. He was a breath of fresh air in my sad life. A few weeks after we started partying together, I found myself in his bed. I didn’t have a single regret. Blaine showed me the type of love I had been craving and begging from Red.

When I ended up pregnant again, I didn’t know if Red was the father or Blaine. I was hoping my baby belonged to Blaine, and so was he. We were both highly disappointed when Colt came out looking like Red’s mini-me.

Blaine left me after that. He had been under the assumption I wasn’t sleeping with Red anymore. I tried to say things were better off, but I found myself sinking deeper and deeper into depression. I hated being home. I hated watching Red shower our children with a love he wouldnevergive to me.

Eventually, I returned to Blaine, begging and pleading for him to take me back. He said he would, but only under one condition.

I had to leave Red and my children behind.

I didn’t even hesitate to walk out on them. At that point, I didn’t even have a bond with my children. They only knew Red and his brothers.

When Blaine was killed, I was crushed. After watching Jason’s henchmen kill Blaine without blinking an eye, I knew I had to do something. I had been doing any and everything to survive over the years.

Getting involved with Jason was the biggest mistake Blaine ever made. He’s a loan shark with an infamous reputation. Anyone who doesn't pay that man his money on time won't live long enough to tell the story. By the time Jason's men had caught up to us, we had been on the run from them for months. I just knew my time was up when they cornered us that night. Imagine my shock when the gunman turned to me and told me I had a month or I would be joining Blaine. I knew I couldn't involve the police. Jason had a few on his payroll. If I was going to get out of this, I was going to have to come up with his money.

I was coming up empty-handed until I ran into Jeffery. We had only been around each other a handful of times, but I knew he was loaded with money. Not only was he going to pay the fifty thousand dollars I owed, but I would also reap the benefits of his wealth as his wife. All he wanted was Cindy to make all that happen. I didn’t even have to think about it.

She was the start of the downward spiral in my life. Had I never had her, things could have possibly been different between Red and me.

Imagine my surprise when I returned and found Red was giving some redheaded bitch everything I had been begging for!

I was furious.

I hated her, and I wanted her dead.

Before the day we approached them on the beach, we had our lawyers ready to file papers. That came to a crashing halt when Viper's woman revealed she knew about Jefferey’s little secret. Jefferey had paid a lot of money to keep that under wraps. We knew with Red having that little bit of information, no judge would grant me any kind of custody.

So, when Declan approached us the day that deranged woman ran us off the beach with her dogs, I was all in with his little plan. He wanted his woman back, and I needed my children.

Now that I had them, I couldn’t wait to live the lavish life that Jefferey had promised me. A life I deserved.

And I was going to get it no matter what.

VIPER

Sittingagainst the headboard in bed, I watch Cara do her nightly routine in front of the vanity mirror. Three and a half years later, and she’s still the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on.

I’ve been told I have an unhealthy obsession with my woman, but I don’t care. She owned my heart the moment she locked those golden orbs with me.

My gaze snaps to her ass when she bends over to rub her legs down with her favorite apple cinnamon lotion. A growl rumbles through my throat. Cara straightens up and locks eyes with me through the mirror. There's a tiny smirk on her face.

The woman knows what she is doing.

“Why the hell you got all them clothes on, Hellcat?” I huff.

Cara titters before looking over her shoulder at me. “Since when is a bra and thongall them clothes.”

“Since you know I’m going to rip that shit off the second you lay in this bed.”

Turning around to face me, she takes her time strutting over to me. My eyes roam all over, taking in her voluptuous frame. Now, my woman was thick the day I met her. I love that shit. Mybabies defiantly added on some much-appreciated curves to her body.

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