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She wipes away a few stray tears. Her gaze connects with mine and something shifts between us. It’s like I can feel the air crackle. It’s intense. Deciding to test the waters, I slowly lean in, giving her time to push me away. When she doesn’t, I move in just a bit faster and then she’s moving forward, meeting me halfway.

When her lips finally touch mine, my entire world changes. I haven’t kissed anyone since her. I couldn’t bring myself to do something so intimate. In this moment, I realize something I should have always known and never doubted.

Maddy is mine.

She was meant to be my wife and the mother of my children, and if I have anything to do with it, she’ll be all those things soon.

Pressing my lips more firmly to her, she gasps. I steal the opportunity to slip my tongue in. I’m rewarded with a tiny whimper when I thrust my fingers in her hair and tilt her head to kiss her deeper. Her hands clutch my shirt as she holds on. I’ve missed this. Missed her. I try to show everything I’m feeling, hoping that it doesn’t overwhelm her and make her bolt.

I don’t know how much time goes by before she pulls away from the kiss, but we’re both panting from the lack of oxygen. When my gaze falls to her lips, they are puffy and red. She looks like she was kissed within an inch of her life.

Good.

I want her to remember how good things were between us. We were each other’s first in almost everything. The night she gave herself to me was the greatest time of my life.

“Jonah,” she rasps, while still holding on to me.

Well, I’ll be damned. My dick isn’t broken after all. I’m hard enough to pound nails. I don’t want to freak her out. I don’t know how she’ll react to seeing or feeling it, so I stand, bringing her up with me.

“I don’t want to rush you, Maddy, but I hope this means you’re willing to give us another shot.” I palm her face and make sure her gaze stays up and not down.

“I shouldn’t be giving in so quickly, but I’ve missed you, Jonah. Despite everything, you always had a piece of my heart, and I could never understand why. Now I do. My heart knewwhat my brain didn’t. You would never betray me like that. So yes, while I’m here, I want to see where this goes.”

I ignore that last part about while she is here because if I have my way, she’ll be here to stay. I give her another quick peck before telling her, “You just made me the happiest man alive, Maddy. I’m going to go because I meant what I said about taking this slow with you and I need to cool down. I’ll see you at dinner?”

She nods and rises on her toes for another kiss. When she pulls away, I jet down the stairs before she can see the bulge in my jeans. After I make it back to the clubhouse, I go straight to my room and lock it. Getting into the shower, I take my cock in my hand and began to stroke it. It doesn’t take long with thoughts of Maddy to having me blowing my load down the drain. Once I’m out, I get dressed with the biggest smile I’ve had in a long time. She will be mine again. Mark my words.

Chapter Eleven

MADISON

The past several days have been incredible. Jonah and I have spent all of his free moments together. He manages the pawn shop the club owns so he’s gone for most of the day. I look forward to five o’clock every day. I’ve fallen fast and quick.

I spend my days video chatting with my parents and brothers. This is the happiest I’ve been in years. There’s something about this place that lifts my spirits. For the first time in a long time, I feel safe, and I have friends. The ladies have been amazing to me. I feel kind of left out when they leave for work but my first day at the hospital is in just a few days.

Jonah laid down a list of rules for me when I’m at the hospital. I hated that conversation. I’m not allowed to leave the building without Doc. If I suspect at any time that Thomas’s goons are around, I have to let Jonah know immediately. My last and final rule is to never go home for the day without Jonah and a few of the brothers with me.

I know he blames himself for everything that has happened even though I don’t. For years I didn’t want to accept what Thomas told me. The Jonah I knew and loved would have protected me till his last breath and that’s why I hold no fault on him. Every time I try and speak my piece, he changes the subjector just shuts me down completely. I don’t know what to do to relieve his guilt. I’m thinking about bringing it up to the ladies. I need some advice on how to approach this with him.

Despite the guilt he’s been feeling, we’ve still managed to go out a few times. He took me to a beautiful restaurant that I later found out the club owned. Cara, Sara, and Bianca pretty much run the place. That had to be the best Italian food I’ve had in my life. Jonah ordered five different things and we just sampled a bit of everything. I knew it had to cost him a pretty penny, but he refused to let me see the bill.

We’ve had a few make-out sessions like we did on the stairs. Every time things get really heated, to where I just want to feel his hands on my skin, he pumps the brakes. It’s so frustrating and a bit hurtful. I don’t want him looking at me like I’m some broken woman. I’ve had years to deal with what happened.

Does it still affect me? Yes.

I would be lying if I said otherwise, but it doesn’t mean that I’m incapable of being intimate ever again. I don’t know what I’m going to do to make him realize that I want to go further. I know he thinks he needs to go slow with me, but turtles move faster than this.

I miss him. I miss how we used to be. I want to see that same hunger in his eyes he used to have before everything happened. My brand-new phone beeps from beside me, breaking my thoughts. That’s another thing Jonah gave me. I offered to pay him back but he refused. I felt like a child getting scolded after he was done ranting about how he would never, under any circumstance, take my money.

Cara and Sara added some kind of virus protection that prevents my phone from being hacked. They also added an app that will do daily sweeps of my phone to make sure nothing funny is going on. When my phone beeps again, I pick up and open the message from Cara.

Cara: Welcome to the SSGC. This is our safe place to speak freely. Whatever is said in this chat will not be judged or repeated. There’s only a few of us women on this compound and we need to stick together.

Bianca: SSGC?

Cara: Sinful Sisters Group Chat. I thought that was kind of obvious. ??

Bianca: No. It wasn’t.

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