Page 49 of Please Remember

I'm confused. "Why are you crying?"

"It's stupid," she says, avoiding my eyes.

"Not if it's upsetting you. Talk to me, baby. Please?"

Sniffling, she glances up at me as a fresh wave of tears starts. "I thought... I really thought when we finally made love that the memories would come back. There was a memory, a snippet of a memory, I guess, and I thought... I thought it would work. That it would bring me back to you."

I pull her into my arms and carry her back to the bedroom. Until now, I never realized how difficult it must be for her knowing nothing prior to the basement. "I love you. Just you. Whether the memories come back or not, I'm here. You're the only one I want to be with."

"I just... I want it all back. I don't want to be the one who doesn't know all these wonderful things from our past. I want to be the girl in the videos screwing your brains out. Making movies together to watch later while we screw each other's brains out some more. I want it all back. I don't want this dark void anymore."

I kiss her temple before pulling the blanket up over us as she shivers. "It's okay."

"It's not. You deserve Old Allie. I can't seem to give her to you."

"Allie, you are just you. Old or New, I love you. And I have faith the memories will come back. But if they don't, that's okay, too. We'll be okay. We'll start over, and that's just as much fun."

Sniffling, she nods. "Thank you."

"For what?"

"Not making me feel crazy. Although I was about to lose my mind when it took you forever to push me over the edge. You know how to deny a girl, don't you?"

I laugh. "I'm sorry."

"That was a lot of fun. How long until we can start doing what we did in those videos?"

Her tears stop, and I look down at her. "You think we should keep doing this?"

"I'm convinced this is the key to getting everything back. And considering how good this was, I am willing to make the sacrifice and fuck you a thousand times, if I need to."

I laugh, and she wraps her arms around my neck. "I'm grateful you're willing to make such a huge sacrifice."

"I know. Orgasms that I’m pretty positive make me leave my body as I shake in pleasure is a price I'm willing to pay, though."

Again, Allie. It's like she's back without knowing she's back. "I think I can make the sacrifice to give you amazing pleasure with my hands, mouth, and your favorite part of my body."

"You think that's my favorite part?"

"It's not?"

"I mean, I only got a small taste, but I think it was kind of okay."

Laughing, I roll her onto her back and kiss her neck. "Kind of okay?"

She giggles as I lavish attention on each of her breasts with my mouth. "Yeah, just okay. Oh! Oh, that's... I like that."

I nibble her nipple while I tug and twist the other between my fingers, and she bucks her hips against me. "You want more?"

"Yes," she pants. "I want it all."

That's exactly what I want to hear as I move up to slide into her again, this time more like we used to. If she's right, and sex is the trigger, then maybe we can get her back to us sooner. I'll quit my job and spend all day making love to her if that's what it takes.

Even though I say it's fine if she never remembers, I can't fathom the thought of her never fully coming back to me. I love her, and I'll be withher no matter what, but I missmyAllie. My girl who knew exactly what I thought and wanted without me ever needing to say a word. I want my girl back.

Chapter Twenty

Laura

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