Page 30 of Vex

“Where’s your head at with this?”

“Scared, nervous. A little hopeful that we might get lucky and get away with our mistake,” I quietly tell him. I hesitate before finishing my thought. “Wondering what it would be like to be pregnant and have a baby. What he or she would look like. Be like. Grow up to become.”

“You’re not freaking out?”

“I had a few moments of panic last night, but it is what it is now. We can’t go back and change things, so I have to look forward. Once I know for sure, I can start making plans. I’ll be fine once I can do that,” I explain. “What about you? What’s your thoughts about this?”

“I’m good. My head’s on straight about this. If you’re pregnant, you’re not doing it alone. Accept and know that now. It’ll be our baby. Ours. Not yours. Not mine. Ours. As in ours together.”

Vex’s gaze on me is steady, and I can see the truth in his beautiful eyes. He’s not going to disappear or brush me off. He’s in this mess with me. As I’m sitting here digesting his words, his warm hand lands on mine on the table. He threads our fingers together and gives my hand a squeeze. My heart does a slow flip-flop, the same as it always does when I have Vex’s attention or touch.

“I believe you mean that, Vex. Thank you. But we’re probably worrying for nothing.”

Without releasing my hand, Vex stands and steps to my side of the table. Using my hand, he pulls me to standing and his other hand lands on my hip. We’re touching from chest to thigh, and I’m finding it far from unpleasant.

Looking up to his face, I see that his eyes are heated. I press tighter to his body and allow myself to enjoy all that’s Vex.

“Pregnant or not, we’re going to be okay, Taj. If we are, I want you to understand that we’ll be a family. Us three and Tessie too. We’ll find the way that works for us. We’ll make it work,” Vex states firmly. No waver, no doubt in his voice.

“Okay, Vex. Thank you,” I say while dropping the side of my face against his chest. He releases my hand, wraps both arms around me and stands steady. After a moment of silence, Vex steps back. I start to turn back to my chair when I’m suddenly airborne and being cradled in his arms. My startled eyes shoot to his and see his whole face grinning wolfishly at me. Instinctively, I toss my arm around his neck and hang tight when Vex puts us into motion.

“What the hell?” I shout.

“It was dark and shadowed in your room the night we spent together. Today, it’s light out. I’m now going to see what I missed last time, Taja. I want you naked and screaming my name, baby. You okay with that?” Vex rasps out.

Before I unscramble my thoughts and answer, we land on my bed, Vex on top. He immediately shifts his weight slightly to my side and our mouths collide. Vex completely overwhelms my senses. His taste, touch, heat and skill keep me enthralled while he explores my mouth. When his hand cups my breast, I come unstuck and roll him to his back. Sliding on top of him, I let my lips roam all the bare skin I can find. My hands slide under his shirt and discover his eight-pack abs. I lightly run my fingers over the defined muscle. There’s nothing soft about Vex. He’s hard everywhere and my hands enjoy every inch of him.

Vex’s hands cup my ass and start sliding my lower half against his. I push up so I’m sitting astride his hips and let him create wonderful friction with our bodies. I pull his t-shirt off and bare his muscled body to my eyes. He has several tats that only increase my desire for him. The tribal tats fit Vex’s body like he was born with them. With his hair, eyes and olive brown skin tone, he has an untamed look. It all works beautifully together.

“What’re we doing, Vex? Are we complicating things?” I quietly ask.

“Nothing’s complicated with us. We may or may not be pregnant, and we’ll get the answer together. We’ll deal with it together. Today, we’re just enjoying each other. Spending time together. Don’t overthink this. There’s nothing to be worried about. We’re both adults, Taja. It’s not wrong in any way for us to be together.”

“Regardless of how things turn out, I don’t regret being with you. I don’t think being with you was wrong. But this is all new to me, and I don’t know how to be casual about it. I don’t want to let feelings get involved and then end up gutted. How do I protect myself from that? You’re an overwhelming force, Vex. I know you’re a good guy. I’ve seen that so many times at work. I like you as a person, as a man. I like who you are. But we’re worlds apart in sexual and relationship experience. I want to be with you but I need to know how to keep it straight in my head that physical is all this is,” I explain.

“Take one day at a time, Taja. Don’t decide what we are or aren’t today. Neither of us knows what we are yet. Let’s just be ourselves and see how things go,” he responds while lifting me off of him and laying me flush against his side. I rest the side of my face on his pec and settle my hand on his abs.

“Okay, I can do that,” I answer with some doubt evident in my voice.

Vex dislodges my hand and head when he rolls to face me. His hand finds my hair at the side of my face and burrows into it deep enough that he’s cupping the back of my head.

“I didn’t come here today to coax you into bed with me. I came because I wanted to know how you’re doing with everything. I came to talk with you about not shutting me out. About letting me in a little more. But shit gets out of hand fast where we’re concerned and here we are. I want you, no doubt there. But I want you to be comfortable with the idea of us having sex again. I’m not trying to pressure you. The ball’s in your court whether we do or not. Even if you say no, that’s not going to change me from seeing this through with you. You understand what I’m saying?”

“Yeah, I do.”

“Why didn’t you tell me you were a virgin, Taj?” he asks with concern in his voice.

“I was going to but things got out of hand so fast. I got so wrapped up in touching you and how you were making me feel, it was too late to say anything,” I mumble in embarrassment while dipping my chin.

Using the hand in my hair, he tilts my chin back up until our eyes meet.

“Never be embarrassed with me. You and me? We’re always going to be honest and open with each other. Anything you need or want to say is something I need or want to hear. There’s nothing to be ashamed of when it comes to us having sex. It’s natural and it’s explosive between us. It’s not usually that way, the way it was with us. It’s only the two of us in this room and I’d never judge you for asking a question or having doubts. We’ll talk out anything together. Yeah?” Vex orders in a low, firm voice.

“Yeah.”

“And if at some point you want to try freaky things, I’m here for you. Use me any how you want,” he adds with a grin and a wink.

I grin back as my whole body relaxes and my mind calms.

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