Page 18 of The Wolf's Secret Baby

I realized now that I had wasted my time with Hana. I had poured my feelings into her, and it had all been for nothing; but Ambrosia was different. Typhon and I could make something with her, I was certain of it. I burned with a desire to have her again and I was determined to prevent anyone from taking her from us. Vance, Siv, or anyone… they would have to kill me before they dared to take Ambrosia away. Whatever her life had been, it was over now. She belonged with us. Now that I had had a proper taste of her, I was not prepared to allow her to leave. Our fates were entwined, and I would do everything in my power to keep her by my side.

Chapter Fourteen

Typhon

I breathed in deeply, composing myself after witnessing such a glorious display of sex. I had watched Ambrosia from all angles, and she was beautiful from every single one. Even now, when she was doused in sweat and panting with exhaustion, her skin flushed, and an exhausted look upon her face, she was still beautiful. She was unlike any woman I had ever known, and Kull had done well to fuck her. He sprinted away, needing to express himself further. I was content to stay with her. I fetched some more meat and handed it to her. There was a dazed look on her face. She stared into the fire, and it was as though she was somewhere else entirely.

“I can’t believe I just did that. What’s coming over me? I’m not like this at all. This isn’t who I am,” she whispered, her voice possessing the ring of uncertainty.

“On the contrary, I think it may well be who you truly are. Why do you think this is a false representation of you? What if you’ve been living a lie in your world?”

She turned slowly and placed her gaze upon me. There was a slight tilt of her head, and it was clear that she hadn’t thought of that notion before. She chewed absently on the meat and her head dropped down.

“I don’t know… I just don’t know.”

“Why is there anything to regret? Our instincts are powerful, and we must listen to them. Your instincts led you here and they inspired you to share something intimate with us. If you had wanted to stop it at any moment, you could have.”

“It just felt so… so raw. So real. There was a voice in the back of my head telling me that I should stop it but theneverything else became so loud and it drowned out that part of me. I never realized I could be so uninhibited. I keep trying to think about what I might say to someone if they came to me as a patient and told me that they had done something like this.”

I couldn’t help but chuckle and she glared at me.

“This isn’t a joke,” she retorted.

“I never meant to imply that it was. I just don’t see the use of analyzing every single thing. Can’t some things simply exist? Can’t some things be beautiful? We enjoyed ourselves together, what is the use of recrimination or regret? Why not simply enjoy the person you became in the moment?”

“Because it goes against everything I’ve been taught.”

“Then perhaps what you’ve been taught is wrong,” I replied quickly, and arched an eyebrow. She continued to stare at me but then she drew the last remaining strands of hair away from her face fully and exhaled deeply.

“Maybe you are right. Maybe I do just need to embrace this side of me. It’s why I came out here in the first place, after all.” A pensive look came across her face, as though she was considering something. Then, she looked towards me once again. This time, her voice was lower and there was a conspiratorial gaze in her eyes.

“So, you enjoyed watching me?”

“I did.”

“Why?”

“There you go again, trying to explain things instead of enjoying them.”

“I don’t mean to I just… I’ve never done anything like that before.”

“Did you like it? Being watched?” I asked.

She lifted an arm and held her shoulder, while she tilted her head at an angle. “I did,” she admitted eventually, even though she seemed reluctant to do so. “I wasn’t sure I would atfirst, but it was hot, feeling like I was putting on a performance, knowing that Kull was enjoying me up close and you were enjoying me from afar. Is that… is that something you’re into?”

“I haven’t had the opportunity to explore these things. The female wolves in our pack have not been eager to share themselves with us. They have always looked down upon us and would not want to sully themselves by mating with us. But seeing you and Kull together it was… pleasing to me. I like seeing the way the fire dances across your bare skin. I like watching you, seeing the pleasure twist upon your face. I can admire you, just as I admire the beauty of nature.”

She softened and seemed to relax a little. “That might be the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me,” she then patted the ground beside her. “Come and sit with me Typhon.”

I did as she asked, sinking to the ground beside her. She took my arm and draped it around her shoulders, nuzzling into me. I enjoyed the feeling of her warmth and her affection. I turned my head and inhaled the scent of her hair. It was light and sweet, with the undertone of lingering smoke.

“I never expected to find men like you here. I never thought I would be this kind of person.”

“And what kind of person is that?”

“The kind that throws away all sense of inhibition, all sensibility entirely in fact. I have always conducted myself with the utmost respect, living up to an ideal that perhaps was too high. It’s funny really, I have spoken to so many people that have fallen prey to their desires. They come to me as though it’s a problem, wanting me to fix them but in truth I have always been a little envious of them. It feels as though they have been able to live, while I have always been hidden in shadows, chained to this idea of how I should act and the woman I should be.”

“You don’t strike me as the type of person to put limits on herself,” I said.

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