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“That’s not your cock.” He furrowed his brow at the remote in my hand.

“If only my cock did this.” I turned it to a low buzz and pressed on the part resting against Parker’s perineum.

“Jesus.Jesus.Unh.”

I upped the vibration a level and gently dragged my fingertip up and down Parker’s dick, teasing him. Sweat beaded at his temples as he glared at me while making aborted thrusts. His legs shook, straining, as they wrapped around me.

“You’re beautiful like this.”

“On the verge of screaming?”

“Pleasured.”

Parker’s eyes fell closed as he smiled. “It’s different.”

“You like it?”

He nodded as he licked his lips. “I’ll come if you so much as breathe on my dick.”

I wasn’t sure if he’d be able to come from the prostate stimulation alone, but he always responded to prostate play. I cranked the vibration one more notch, and Parker shot up onto his elbows. The pace of his breathing told me he was close to coming, so I quickly slipped a condom on and lubed myself while he thrashed on the bed, moaning and whimpering and begging me for release. He planted his feet on each side of me, thrusting into the air, and I gripped him and stroked exactly how I knew he craved to bring on his orgasm.

“Gonna. Gonna. Gon—” He grunted as cum spurted out of him over my fingers.

I stroked him through his orgasm, then turned the vibration off as soon as he twitched.Ineed inside of him.I licked his cum off my fingers to the soundtrack of his cursing, carefully removed the toy from him, and lined myself up.Finally.I’d loved everything we’d done, but connecting with him in a new way had my toes curling.

Another thing I’d learned about Parker over the past month was how he enjoyed stimulation after orgasm. I grabbed his legs, hooked them over my shoulders, and gripped his shins as I slowly pushed inside. Relaxed from his orgasm, his body welcomed me. Once my pelvis touched his skin, he let out a guttural moan. I wanted to stretch it out, but I was on edge from watching him fall apart. It barely took a minute of deep thrusts and him clenching around me before my orgasm crashed over me.

I let myself bask in the pleasure coursing through my veins before I dropped Parker’s legs and undid the straps around his wrists. He tugged me on top of him, wrapping his arms and legs around me. Our bodies still jerked with aftershocks as he held me.

“I can’t get enough of you.”

“Me neither,” I whispered. If I said it too loudly, our bubble might burst.

We weren’t pretending any longer. I knew it, he knew it, but neither of us had said anything. That was my fault. Parker had been nothing but respectful about my boundaries and honoring one of the first things I’d told him way back on New Year’s Eve—no dating, no relationships. Of course he respected my boundaries. We’d had a zillion conversations about boundaries and consent since we’d agreed to add in kink 101.

Kink 101. Who was I fooling with that? I honestly had wanted to help him because I thought being a fake boyfriend at a couple of events wasn’t enough to thank him for assisting Rosie, but sex didn’t need to be a part of anything. That was all me using our situation to get closer to him without having to fully risk my heart.

Am I finally ready to risk it?Somehow we’d reached a point where the thought of not trying hurt worse than things ending badly. I didn’t know when those lines had blurred.

I opened my mouth to say something and start the conversation, but I noticed his eyes were closed.Next time. We’ll talk.

CHAPTER 25

ETHAN

Team Tap That Group Text

Ty:What’s the theme again for Sunday’s dinner?

Dom:Mediterranean. Need a list of acceptable contributions?

Ty:I might get stuff to do a hummus plate

Austin:That’s… alarmingly accurate. What’s the catch?

Ty:I like hummus. But I’m still debating

Ethan:Garlic hummus and pita sounds soooo good

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