Page 37 of Eternal Hoptimist

Ethan:Are there things you watch in porn that turn you on?

I pulled my attention from my phone and found everyone focused on the huge TV. I tried to watch Dorothy giving Stan well-deserved shit while waiting for Parker’s response and keeping my dick under control. Multitasking was hard.

Parker:Gagging, spanking, restraints, edging, toys, everything

Ethan:That gives us lots to start with. Gagging with a dick down someone’s throat or more along the lines of a ball gag?

I snorted when he sent back a GIF of Patrick fromSchitt’s Creekshrugging and saying, “Both.”This is going to be fun.

Parker:There are tons of options. I’ve only got you for a little while and want to make the most of it, but no idea where to start

After rereading the message several times, the twinge in my chest didn’t lessen. I told my body to fucking cool it with that sappy shit and not to reply with promises about how he could have me whenever he wanted.I’m in my Eat and Pray phase. It’s not time for Love, cowboy. Simmer down.

“Another St. Olaf story. Drink!” Caleb called out as he lifted theGolden Girlsmug Dom, Ty, and I got him for Christmas to keep in the house when he visited. It had all four of their faces on it since the rest of us had long ago claimed our own Golden Girl. It was either a mug with the four of them or one with Stan’s face. Austin put his foot down when Ty had suggested Dorothy’s sleazy ex.

We’d lucked out that Austin had found someone who fit in seamlessly with the rest of us. I couldn't imagine getting as lucky, and it was even harder to imagine Ty and Domevergetting into a relationship.

The guys had always put in an effort to welcome who I’d dated in the past, but no one clicked with them like Caleb.

Parker:What are you into with kink?

Ethan:I like a lot of things, but this isn’t about me

Parker:It’s just as much about what you want as what I do. I’m not going to do this if you put aside your comfort and interest. I’m not good with that. I want you to enjoy it.

Ethan:Trust me, I’ll enjoy it [smirk emoji] but thank you. I appreciate the concern.

Ethan:I promise we’ll never do something I don’t want to do, just like we’ll never do something you don’t want to do. We both have the power to stop what we’re doing at any time. Okay?

Parker:Ok. I want to make sure we’re doing things you’re into as well.

Ethan:We can do that. How about I send you some stuff, and you can do some research. I’ll send you a couple of quizzes. Then tell me what your results areif you’re good with that.

Parker:Asking me to do spicy research?

Ethan:Does that turn you on?

Parker:Actually, yeah, it does. I love research but never thought about how to make it sexy.

Ethan:I can make research very sexy for you. You might have a research kink.

Parker:Is that a thing?

Ethan:Anything can be a kink

Parker:If I knew that before, law school could’ve been so much more fun

Ethan:[laugh-cry emoji]

Ethan:[link to a kink quiz] [links to kink terminology]

Ethan:Look through those things to give you a better sense of what some common kinks are. Let me know if any of those jump out at you as must-dos or hell-nos.

Parker:Pro sex toys

Parker:Hell no at any body fluids

Ethan:Even spit and cum? What if I sucked you off and swallowed then kissed you after so you could taste yourself on me? Or if I spit on your hole before fingering you?

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