“Okay. Seriously, Chloe, calm down. This isn’t like you. Take a deep breath. Come on. Deep breath,” she spoke as she breathed in and out.
Following her lead, I took in several deep breaths to try and calm myself. After about the fourth one, my heart started to settle down.
“That a girl.” She walked over to me and wrapped her arms around me. “I’m sorry he sucks. You need to tell him that you aren’t pregnant.”
“I’m not telling him anything. If he thinks I’m pregnant, let him think it. It’s over between us for good. He showed his true colors with this, and it’s something I don’t think I’ll ever be able to forgive him for.”
“Come, let’s sit down on the couch and be rational about this.” She took hold of my arm and walked me to the couch.
“Are you defending him?” I narrowed my eyes at her.
“No. I’m not defending him at all. What he did was a total douchebag move. But aren’t you the one who said that he was broken inside? You knew exactly what you were getting into when the two of you became a couple. This shouldn’t shock you.”
“But it does! He turned his back on his child and the mother of his child. A woman he supposedly loves.”
She held up her finger. “Now remember, he never told you that he loved you. He just always said ‘me too,’ which, if you stop and think about it, he’s actually saying he loves himself too.”
“Ugh! You aren’t helping!” I brought my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around my legs. “He grew up without a family. His parents abandoned him, and now he is doing the same thing.” A tear formed in my eye.
“Hold up. You’re not even pregnant, so technically, he didn’t abandon his child because a child does not exist.”
“But to him, it does. He thinks I’m pregnant, so he ABANDONED his child!” I yelled.
“Stop yelling at me, Chloe. Meditate, do something.”
As I shook my head, the tears in my eyes began to fall down my face.
“I can’t believe he would do something like this. I thought I knew him, but obviously I don’t.”
“Aw, sweetie,” she whispered as she placed her hand on my arm. “You do know him and how he struggles with relationship things. I mean, he’s trying so hard, and now he thinks you’re pregnant, and he got scared. You know what babies’ men are.”
“So you are defending him?”
“No. I’m just trying to make you see it from his point of view. He never had a family, and now he has this amazing girlfriend who loves him to the ends of the earth, and then here comes baby. Instant family. He’s scared, Chloe.”
“I guess you’re right, but I DON’T GIVE A SHIT!”
“There you go with the yelling again.”
“I’m done. I don’t deserve this. I’m a good person, Sienna.”
“Of course you are. You’re the sweetest, most kindhearted, and giving person I know. But I still think you need to tell him you’re not pregnant.”
“No.” I shook my head. “He can think it all he wants. I’m done with him. Finished.”
“And what are you going to do when he gets back and wants to talk?”
“He doesn’t get to talk. He lost that right the minute he walked out my door. If it’s so easy for him to stay away from me for a week or so, then it’ll be a fuck of a lot easier to stay away the rest of his life.”
“Chloe, I’m worried. This doesn’t even sound like you.”
“I’m hurt, Sienna. Don’t you understand that?”
She kissed the side of my head. “Of course I do. But you don’t have a mean bone in your body. You never have.”
“Maybe that’s my problem. I’ve let too many guys walk all over me all these years. Not this time. He made his bed over an assumption, and now he can rot in it.”
She sighed heavily as she tried to comfort me. “I think you mean he can sleep in it.”