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“We can. You were so beautiful last night. I loved taking care of you.”

“Okay.” Now that he’d brought up the tough subject, he was exhausted. He leaned against Jace. “I want that. I want to be your baby boy again.”

“You are. No matter what mindset you’re in. But do you know how far in your little role you want to go?” Jace questioned. “I don’t want to do anything that makes you uncomfortable.”

Avery shook his head. “You haven’t done anything to make me uncomfortable.”

“And I want to keep it that way. Remember when we talked about safe words?”

“Yes.” Jace had brought it up only a couple of nights ago.

“If would be good if you had one. That way you can be unsure about something, and if I push, you can let me know where your head is,” Jace offered.

“The traffic lights?” Avery asked. Those were the ones that made the most sense to him.

“Yes, we can use those. Green for good, yellow to slow down or that we need to talk, and red for everything stops. I will never be mad if you use your safe word.”

“Okay…Daddy.”

“I mean it, boy. If you use a safe word, I’ll be proud of you, never angry,” Jace said. As serious as he was, Avery knew what Jace was saying was important.

“I’ll use it if I need to,” Avery promised.

“Thank you. If I do anything that you’re not ready for, we’ll stop immediately. We’ll talk.”

Avery squirmed. There was one thing he wasn’t sure of. He bit his lip as he tried to get his thoughts in order. “What…what about…ummm…

“This is a safe space,” Jace said gently. “Nothing you say is going to make me mad. Asking questions is always encouraged.”

“I read the links you sent,” Avery told him. He’d been a good boy.

“I know. I’m very proud of you.”

“But sometimes not everyone agrees on things, like relationship things,” Avery said. He knew he wasn’t being clear.

“Every relationship is different.”

“For us…how do I know when it’s okay to be little?” Avery asked. He didn’t want to be too much for Jace.

“That is a very good question,” Jace praised. “There are different ways we could do your little time. I know couples who are boyfriends during the week and only play on the weekends.”

Avery shook his head. He didn’t like that idea. That wasn’t enough time to him.

“Others schedule time to be Daddy and little.”

Avery liked schedules, but he wasn’t sure.

“It can also be more fluid. With the way that you naturally go from being little, to big, let’s call it, it might be easier for us to go with how you’re feeling.”

Avery nodded. That seemed much better. “So like if I feel like being little, that’s okay?”

“Yes. I can’t turn off being a Daddy, although I will always respect your boundaries. I think for you that it might be the same. That’s one of the reasons we’re such a good match. For now, let’s play it by ear and let you be little as much as you want.”

Avery nodded. Now just one more thing. “What about when I have…” Avery grunted. It was hard to talk about some of these things.

“What is it, boy?”

“I feel really good when you take care of me,” Avery told him.

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