Page 125 of The Diary of the Vam'pir Jacques

Before I kill him, I’ll remind Kierran that I was his first love. When Kierran begs for forgiveness, it’ll be then that I murder him.

How dare he betray me so?

He is a cheap slut, while I remained faithful all these years.

I want to hurt him like he has me. Why is Kierran doing this? I must save myself from his dirty ways. When he is reborn, I will find him, and we’ll live forever and ever in pure happiness. Of course, Kierran will be very grateful to me for the fact I released him from this filthy, stinking little life.

But in this woman’s body, Kierran must die. I love him so much, but I hate her. Polly has tried to corrupt his soul and so I’llrelease it to be reborn again. Kierran will come to me begging for me to take him back, and he’ll be clean and innocent.

Kierran will allow me to take him in my arms and give him the kiss of love that will enable him to be with me forever.

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Julia continues like this for several pages. It is the ranting of the insane, and I don’t think that we need read anymore. Her frame of mind is quite clear; Julia is completely mad.

It is such a shame, as I think that Julia really believed what she was saying. Julia kept confusing Kierran with Polly and mixed the two of them in her head.

She could not separate them, and so she thought the only way was to kill Polly. It meant nothing to Julia that it was now Polly’s soul. Polly made the choices and Polly’s soul had nothing to do with Kierran.

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So, why am I writing this tale to Eden?

Because I understand Eden is not Elizabeth. Eden’s not as strong-willed as Elizabeth was. They do not look that alike, either. Elizabeth was not as intelligent as Eden was, although Elizabeth was quite clever.

Eden is not as imaginative as Elizabeth. Yet, the similarities also lie in their good nature and kindness displayed towards people. They are both fairly bad judges of character and tend to take everyone at face value. Hence, Eden must clearly understand who I am.

But the soul that looks out of Eden’s eyes recognises me, but she doesn’t understand how. Eden knows me but can’t quite put her finger on why.

Eden approached me first, in a pub close to Barking Train Station. (A small town near to London.) I was out looking for a prey when I met Eden. However, I am not obsessed with Eden.

If she turns me down, then I’ll leave Eden alone till her soul is reborn… unless I follow Julia.

I will then ask that reincarnation to join me, and if she or he says no again, then I shall be patient until one answers yes. With the greatest control, I’ll not allow myself to become obsessed and mad like Julia.

Thankfully, I do not require Eden’s presence to live, and I can wait for her to choose my way of life.

I find it hard to understand why Julia did not walk away and wait for him to be reborn. Why didn’t she just wait for the next body to hold his soul and approach that? Perhaps this was the first time Julia encountered Kierran’s soul.

That is what I am planning to do if Eden turns me down.

Kierran’s soul may have been reborn many times, yet it had eluded Julia. Perhaps Julia panicked and thought that she wouldn’t find him again. Julia would have. But Julia couldn’t wait and would not walk away.

Julia’s next entry describes how she killed Polly Nichols, and I have no wish to subject you to that. Julia gloats and speaks in detail. However, she was troubled because Polly still didn’t recognise her, even after identifying herself.

I won’t let you read that bit. It is too upsetting and nasty, and nearly everyone knows how Polly Nichols met her death.

All you need to understand is Julia killed her. However, the end part of that entry is interesting.

August 30th.

…I have decided that all prostitutes hold an innocent soul that begs to be set free from the life that they have. My mission is to set the souls loose, and I’ll do that.

I will wait for the fervour to calm down a bit, and then I’ll release another. Those unfortunate souls remain unwillingly trapped. My duty is to free them like I freed Kierran. But I must wait in case the others guess what I am doing.

I cannot be stopped, so I have to play safe.

If I get caught, then the Vam’pirs will stop me, and that cannot be allowed. I cannot hurt them as we have never hurt another of our kind. Jacques, in particular, might become suspicious as he lives in London like I do. So, I’ll bide my time and spend it picking out another soul to rescue.

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