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“That’s what we’ve been asking, but she hasn’t spoken yet.” Jason squeezed my shoulders again before releasing one of them to cradle my face as he used his thumb to wipe away the tears.

“I did it.” My words were barely audible, but it stopped them as they stared at me. I cleared my throat and tried again, forcing my words to be louder, but not enough to wake Liam. “I had sex tonight. I did it. I slept with Ethan.”

“So why are you crying? Did you not want to? Did he force you?”

I shook my head. “No, I wanted it, but it felt wrong. All wrong because it wasn’t you. It was supposed to be you. Every time he touched me; I thought of how you touched me.” My gaze roamed between them, letting them know I was speaking to all of them. “When I traced his tattoo, I remembered the time I spent with you doing the same thing. When he sucked on my nipple, I could feel how your mouth felt, how your tongue felt. Every time, I thought of you. And then he finished… and I had to fake it. A fake orgasm for a fake relationship.”

The guys looked at me, watching me as if I was about to go crazy on them. And maybe they were right. Maybe I was about to lose myself the madness since it all seemed to be bubbling inside me. And now that whatever had blocked it had come free, there was nothing to stop it.

I pulled away from them. Not wanting their hands on me. My nerves were too frayed, their touch too soothing, too exhilarating for me to handle. I paced in front of them, trying to dispel some of my nervous energy.

“Why did you have to sleep with all those women? Why did you have to have a child with one of them. I love Liam but he’s not mine and he was supposed to be mine. I was supposed to bethe mother of your children. Long after you showed me what sex was really about. Now of the women I saw you with ever looked like how I felt tonight. They were happy, blissed out on their orgasm while I’m still so jumpy, I can’t even stand still.

“Why didn’t you want me? Why weren’t you my first?”

I stopped, facing them as my chest heaved and I waited. Waited for them to answer me, to put me out of my misery.

Peter stepped in front of me. He tilted my head back until I was staring up at him. “Is that what you want? Do you want us to make love to you? To show you what it’s really like? To worship your body until you beg for us to stop because you can’t stay awake any longer, your body completely wiped of its energy. Tell me, Katy-bear is that really what you want?”

I stared deep into his eyes, looking for signs of deception, but I didn’t see them. So, I gave the only answer I could. “Yes.”

My chin was spun until I stared at Jason’s body was pressed into Peter’s side. “We won’t be having sex.” My heart fell, started to shatter until I heard the rest of his words. “—because what’s between us is more than meaningless sex. It’s love. And that’s completely different. We’ll be making love to you, branding you with our claim.”

My chin was moved again. This time to the other side of Peter where Jarrod stood. “It’ll be a first for us too. We’ve never made love before. Not to a woman. We might have given them pleasure, but it was momentary, fleeting. What’ll happen between us with be life long, life altering. Are you sure this is what you still want?”

I licked my lips, but they weren’t done with me yet. I was turned again to meet Peter’s deep, dark gaze. “There’s no going back. This will change everything and there’s no way to undo it. You’ll have to live with it forever, just like we will.”

I didn’t need to think about it. This was what I’d dreamed of all my life. This was what I wanted. I didn’t care about theconsequences even though I probably should have. Peter was literally handing me his life if we did this now. We were months away from graduation. Months where if anything slipped, he would probably end up in jail. At least Liam would be safe since Jason and Jarrod were officially legal guardians of him, but he’d grow up without his biological father. Peter would never be able to teach again. He’d be labelled a sex offender for life. Could I really take that risk with him?

So, help me, I did. I wanted it more than anything.

“Yes, it’s what I want.”

33

Peter

The moment she said yes, I lifted her, wrapping her legs around my waist as I pressed my lips to hers in a soft kiss full of promise. The promise of things to come, the promise of my love, the promise of who she was to me. I knew I needed to kiss her first, kiss her without thinking because if I hesitated at all, I’d back out. This was crossing a line I never imagined myself crossing. But I’d only been fooling myself. No matter what happened, no matter how many people tried to get between us, Katy and I were destined to be together. And from that very first kiss after her last party at the barn, we’d been on this path, this collision, and there’d been no escaping it.

I massage her lips with mine, breathing in her scent. I could still smell the lingering scent of sex, of him on her, but I ignored it, focusing in on the lavender, the vanilla. And when I finished mapping the outline of her lips with the tip of my tongue, sliding it between her lips until she opened them, then I could smell the mint of her toothpaste, and the fruitiness of the punch.

I pulled back a little, realizing for the first time that Jarrod had bracketed her, pressing the front of his body along her back so she could rest her head on his shoulder. “Did you drink the punch, Katy-Bear?”

“Only a shot of it. And then two bottles of water. I needed the illusion of courage from it.”

“Baby-Girl, after this, you never drive home if you’ve had even a sip of alcohol. If you do, I punish you with a spanking.”

She squeezed my hips and squirmed over my cock at Jason’s mention of a spanking. “Don’t think that punishment’s going to work. I think she likes the idea of a spanking a little too much, don’t you?”

“I agree from the way her ass cheeks clenched me. I can’t wait until I can slide up in her, feeling how tight she is.”

Fuck. I needed them all to stop talking or I was going to blow before I got anywhere near here pussy. Although, it’s not like I wouldn’t have company for those honours since they’d told me how Jarrod blew his load in his pants after getting her off by rubbing her over him. Her fully clothed pussy over his clothed cock. That was some randy teenage bullshit move.

But I wasn’t like that. I wasn’t going to blow this chance. I had greater control which is ironic since Jarrod’s all about control. Yet when he’s around Katy, she unravels him, makes him lose all sense of control. And I think he really likes it. “Let’s take this to the bedroom.”

Jarrod backed up, giving me room to carry her as the others followed. I placed her on the bed, pushing on her until her back was flat and her legs hung over the side at her knees.

“Before we start, we should talk a few things through.” Katy pouted at Jason, but he just wagged his finger at her. “It’s important. This is your first time. You first real time. And there’s three of us, Baby Girl. I don’t want you too sore to walk tomorrow. And you’re not ready to take two or all three of us atonce.” She nodded. “Do you want all of us to be a part of this time?” She nodded again. “I need your words, Baby Girl. You know the rules.”

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