Page 93 of Loving Leo

What I really mean to him.

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Heath

I fucked up.

Majorly.

But my mom was in my face and I could feel Leo’s eyes on me.

Those beautiful eyes.

I was torn in half. I was lost and spoke too quickly, uttered words I can’t take back. Words he heard.

“You’ll end it,” she hisses as she pokes at my chest, reiterating once more that she doesn’t like who I want to be with. She wants me with Lana and no one else. Even though she cheated on me, even though she only is with me for the money and the connections.

Even if I’m happy with Leo.

And yet I called what we havenothing.

He heard it too and now he’s gone.

“Fuck,” I murmur, running a hand through my hair. How does she have so much control over me? It shouldn’t matter what she or anyone thinks.

“End it now.Or else.”

I meet her gaze and clench my jaw. “Or else what?”

She sputters and her cheeks turn an ugly shade of red. She looks like a dragon.

“Or else you’ll lose this.” She sweeps her hand out toward the yard. “You’d give all this up for someone like him?”

Would I? Yeah, I fucking would. I never liked it much anyways.

I huff a laugh. “Yeah. I would. Fuck this. Fuck you. I’m leaving. And mom, Lana and I aren’t ever getting back together. You need to quit trying to make that happen. Leo’s it for me.”

She sputters, but I’m already turning around and moving quickly through the house, trying to catch him before he leaves, but he’s gone. I can feel his absence.

Did I fuck this up for good? Is it over now?

I should have stayed home with him and not gone to this stupid family event. They just like to tote us around like souvenirs anyways. We aren’t real people with emotions and feelings. We’re nothing more than puppets.

I hate it here. I hate them.

“Heath! I just saw Leo leave!” Selena says, catching my arm and panting heavily.

I stop for a moment to look at her.

“Are you going to die?”

“I just ran. In heels. You try it sometime. Anyways, what happened?”

“Leo left. Mom caught us. She knows. Or at least knows that something’s going on…I mean, I told her. So…”

“Hell yes!” She lets out a laugh before smothering it. “Oh, but Leo is upset. What did you say?”

“Nothing much. And that’s the problem. Shit, I messed up. Big time.”

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