Page 69 of Knot Happening

I manage to extract myself from his clingy limbs, but it takes effort. “Happy Birthday,” I whisper, since he’s finally stopped groaning and rolling about the bed.

“It’s not his birthday anymore.”

I startle at the sound of the deep voice behind me and spin to face Declan in the dark hallway beyond the door.

After Hayden and I had our moment in the pool house, we rejoined the party once the guys’ mom left. I didn’t ask any more questions or pry. We all have shit we don’t want to talk about with anyone else. I was honestly just happy to understand that all this time, there wasn’t something wrong with me.

Declan is on me and pinning me against the wall in seconds, burying his face against my neck, breathing deeply as his hand trails up the outside of my thigh. His other hand rests against the wall beside my head, and I watch him with wide eyes as he leans back.

“Did you have a gift for me too?” His voice is husky and filled with the hint of a growl. My Omega side blossoms like a flower under his attention.

“What do you want?”

“If Kodiak was sober, would you have given him a taste?”

I freeze, because I can’t tell him the truth. I can’t…say it. Like this, when he’s not paying me for this, or simply commanding me. I can’t ask for it.

Just give me what I need. Don’t make me ask for it.

I gasp as he nips at my sensitive skin.

“Hayden’s brothers…” is all I manage to get out, through the haze of desperation that's sinking into my bones. I so badlywant.

But fuck, the idea of saying it? I can’t. I just can’t. It was easier when Kodiak was a stranger in a mask. Or on the roof, when Declan was my boss, telling me what he wanted. What to do. I was in heat when I was with Hayden… Or being paid. I wasn’t asking for it. Telling them my desires. What if they see me differently, if they know I want them so badly?

Then there's the fact that things have changed between the four of us tonight. The claims. The truths. The confessions and tears.

“Hayden is pack. And he’s watching you being pinned against the wall by his brother right now.” His hand that had been sliding up my thigh grips my chin so he can turn me until I’m staring into those blue orbs. “Don’t you want to give him a show? You know he has a voyeurism kink, should we see if you have the same kink, Little Omega?”

“Declan.” I’m shaking my head, gripping his shirt so I can push him away. “You’re my boss. This.” I shake my head again, but instead of pushing him back until I can breathe, I pull him further into me until his hips meet mine. “We shouldn’t do this.” Can he hear what my body is saying? What my scent is begging for? What my words can’t? I’m sending mixed signals. It’s not fair.

“Why not? Because you might enjoy it? Because you’re scared of what it might mean to let us in?” His hand has returned to my thigh. Caressing the skin just under the seam of my dress. When he pushes his leg between my thighs, spreading them wider, his pheromones wash over me. My body responds with a gush of slick. Hayden’s scent joins the party, and my head becomes foggy with desire. It’s not like being in heat, where you lose minutes and hours of time. Instead, it’s like being tipsy after one glass of wine. My body is humming with need that is so fucking hard to deny.

“I… I…” I can’t speak. Can’t think. The hardness in his jeans presses against my center, as my dress rides up my hips.

“Say no, Tatum, if you don’t want this, say no.” Hayden is closer now. His words draw my attention to him, but he doesn’t say anything else. I don’t speak. I can’t say yes. If they make me say yes, I don’t think I can… Something in my mind makes me choke up. Like a wall I can’t break down.

But I don’t say no. I hold his gaze, my eyes watering as I stare up at him. I want to beg. I want to be bold, and ask for what I need, but something in me just can’t. My fear of rejection? The fear that they’ll turn away from an Omega that enjoys sex and pleasure?

My scent makes my need known as the hall fills with blueberry and vanilla ice cream. My slick is wet between my thighs, and I whine desperately.

Declan growls, claiming my lips in a dizzying kiss. I’m gripping his face in both hands as I lean into his hard chest. His lips are soft and warm, and he tastes like frosting from the cupcakes we had earlier. His scent is intoxicating, his hands on my body like a match catching fire. He makes me dizzy and needy.

Declan grips a handful of my ass under the dress and squeezes.

“You know, when Hayden wouldn’t stop talking about you, I thought he just fell easily. Making you out to seem like this untouchable goddess. But he was right. You’re too good for us. In every possible way, but we’re not strong enough to let you go, Tatum. None of us is walking away from this.”

I’m lifted off my feet, and I wrap my legs around his waist as he carries me back into Kodiak’s room. Declan’s twin is already awake, sitting up in his bed…and he’s naked. His cock is in his hand, and he doesn’t look the least bit bothered or surprised to see me wrapped around Declan.

Kodiak watches as Declan lays me down on the edge of his bed, Hayden following us in. I lean up on my elbows, looking at the three men watching me like I’m their sun. Their true north. My heart slams against my ribs as it pounds in my chest, stealing my attention.

Logically, I know now that Hayden didn’t choose to just leave me, but… The damage is done to my heart. The pain that taints everything. This feeling. This happiness.

“She doesn’t like asking for what she needs. She wants you to give it to her. Your safe word is Broken, Tatum. I want you to say Broken, if you want to end this immediately. Only Declan and Kodiak will touch you. I know there’s a history here we haven’t worked through yet. Do you understand?” Hayden is leaning against the wall, arms crossed over his chest as he watches me closely.

I nod.

“Say you understand, Omega,” Kodiak barks, but none of his Alpha command is in his tone. I meet each of their eyes before agreeing.

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