Page 90 of Blue

Bullet pushed away from the door, crossed in front of me, and rested his ass against the edge of the desk. “Kiss, you know how I feel about that kid. You need to let us help him. We know Blue’s going through some shit.” He leaned forward. “You’re not betraying him.You gotta tell us what’s going on with him. Did you two have a fight?”

I shook my head, sniffed snot, and wiped my tears. “He won’t talk to me. He rode off about twenty minutes ago. He’s in a dark place, Bullet. He thinks I’d be better off without him.”

“That doesn’t make any sense.” Cruz paced across the room. “We were hitting trap houses, looking for you,” he said to me, then turned to Rogue. “Bruh, he was obsessed. Nothing mattered but Kiss. I was with him earlier tonight. He was good. Going home to you,” he said as he glanced over his shoulder at me.

Another wave of emotion washed over me. He’d come home to me and felt pressured into something he wasn’t ready for.

“Do you know where he’d go?” Rogue asked Cruz. “You said you were hitting drug houses. Is he using?”

“Fuck, no.”

“Don’t fucking lie to me.” Rogue’s clipped tone sent a nervous ripple over my flesh. I wouldn’t lie to him. Neither would Cruz if he didn’t want Rogue squashing him like a bug. “You two are double trouble,” he finished.

“Yeah, but not that shit. You know Blue. A blunt and maybe a few too many beers, and he’s good. We were looking for you,” Cruz said to me, burying me under another layer of guilt.

“I think I know where he went,” I said. “But I don’t know how to get there. I’ve only been once.” I rushed on, telling them what I remembered of the ride. “It was night, so I couldn’t see where we were going, but Blue goes there when he gets dark. It’s isolated. An old flour mill.”

Rogue jerked his gaze to Bullet.

“Do you know the place?” I asked. “Please tell me you know where he is.”

“Let’s go.” Bullet pushed away from the desk.

“No,” I snapped. “He’s in a bad place. He’ll hate that I came to you. But I think he’ll talk to you,” I said to Cruz. “He wouldn’t want Hellers rushing in.”

“We all go.” Rogue pulled his keys from his pocket. “If Blue—”

“No. Listen to me. Blue…” I couldn’t tell them Blue’s secrets. I’d only be guessing, but I knew I was right. Someone hurt Blue. If Blue did…something bad, something permanent, if he hurt himself, then it wouldn’t matter. We’d be too late. But I couldn’t think those kinds of thoughts. He’d be okay. “Blue wouldn’t want all of us to come after him. Cruz, can you just go?”

“You know I’ll do anything for him. I got you, Kiss. Whatever you need.”

“There’s a ladder on the backside of a building near some silos. If he’s there, he’ll be on the roof.” If all three rode in, he might jump.

Thinking of losing him had bile climbing into my throat and fear like I’ve never known squeezing my chest. Damn him. I should have tried harder, found a way to keep him from leaving. I could only pray now. Pray he hadn’t done something stupid. Pray he’d talk to Cruz. Pray he’d come back to me.

Because I was lost without him.

“Go,” Bullet said to Cruz. “Old Post Highway, about mile marker twenty-two. There’s nothing out that way but farms and boarded up businesses.”

Cruz jetted from the room, and I ran after him, into the parking lot, and stood by his bike as he started the engine.

“Get my number from McKelle,” he said.

I nodded, and he sprayed gravel as he rode out of the parking lot.

Rogue and Bullet came up beside me.

“We’ll find him,” Bullet said, then headed for his bike.

“He’s going over to Indulgence just in case Blue shows up there. Let’s take a walk.”

“I need to talk to McKelle, but I don’t know who she is.”

“She’s inside, but we need to talk first.”

Rogue walked away from the oil drum. I fell into step beside him. “Is Blade going to make me leave? I know you all voted to ban me from the club.”

Blade would have to ban me permanently, and Rogue would kill me if they knew I’d betrayed them to the Crawlers.

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