Page 40 of The Gargoyle in the College

I shake my head, trying to shake away the thoughts. She hasn’t said anything, so I shouldn’t think about that before she says a thing. I’ll know very soon.

I arrive at her home soon enough, so soon that she isn’t around yet. I stare at the door with an urge to get out of here. Somehow,I wanted to be here, but when I’m here, it feels like I shouldn’t be.

While I’m still alone, I flex my arm. It has been a while since I’ve beaten up something, but that doesn’t mean I’m weak. My muscles are fine, and my magic ability is still on par. Do I not look like a good mate?

Now that I think about it, what do humans look for in a mate? It can’t be the same as what gargoyles look for, right?

Maybe Laura wants someone literate who knows a lot of different knowledge. Then I may not be the best, even though I’d hate to admit that.

I head to her bedroom, staring at her bed, where we spent nights together. She’ll be back soon. That annoying guy maybe with her, so I should stay away from the living room.

I head to the corner, leaning onto the wall as I stare at the empty bed. The pillow and the blanket are all messed up. She must have been in a hurry when she left for lessons. or she doesn’t care to fold everything up, which I understand. I don’t do that myself too, but that’s when I sleep on a bed, which has been a while.

There’s a click at the door. Laura’s chuckle comes and lures me to the outside like a perfect bait. But I know better than letting anyone else see me. She is with someone else, and that’s exactly what annoys me the most. I don’t even know the guy, but I hate him already.

It takes longer than it should for the door to be closed and Laura should be on her own and she’s ready for the talk.

Do I go outside and tell her I’m here? Or do I wait for her to look for me, not knowing if she’s alone?

There’s only her scent in the room, so she should be alone, but for once... I wonder whether she wants to see me. Or is she going to regret her decision and tell me to be back the next day?

“Gisett, are you here?”

So, here goes nothing.

I get out of her room. She doesn’t seem to be surprised. She gives a tight smile. “You’re here already.”

I grit my teeth when the other male’s scent on her is strong, but I fight to keep my emotions to myself. “Yes, I figured you have something to tell me.”

She blinks as if she is surprised. “I mean...”

I shrug. “It’s okay. Just tell me.”

She watches me for another moment. A thick silence lingers between us. I hate that, but there’s nothing I can do to stop it. Maybe as well take it on the face.

I take a step back. “Just so you know, it’s okay whatever you want to say. I hope I don’t intimidate you.”

She looks to the side, avoiding my gaze. “So... You want to cut to the chase.”

“I do. If something is to happen regardless, just do it. I don’t want to keep waiting and guessing.”

She nods again. I want to hold her in my arms and tell her that we can solve everything together, but that’s not what she wants. Or say, I should wait for her to say something before jumping to conclusions myself.

She says, “I think you are a great gargoyle.”

Yeah... but I’m still not good enough for her.

She continues, “But I’m a human.”

I nod. That’s a fact and there’s nothing we can do to change that.

She says, “I know you care about me, and we’ve shared plenty of intimate time.”

It hurts more than getting my wings burned by magical flames from a while back. I fight to keep my head up, but it’s not that easy.

She takes a step closer to me but stops before she’ll be right in front of me. Maybe she’s still scared of me. I think red eyes aren’t a thing among humans naturally.

“Gisett... I... We can’t. We can be friends, but not like this.”

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