Page 48 of Dangerous Allure

Axel

Coming home from school yesterday and seeing that video sent me over the edge. I left the house and went straight to hers, knowing she wasn’t there. I just needed to inhale her scent and figure out how to save her.

My brothers are all wrong. She doesn’t enjoy being used and fucked in every hole of her body. They wouldn't understand the lengths a victim will go to keep their minds and body safe from harm. They wouldn't know what it's like to be touched against your will, but I do. I can see the mask in place on her face. I can see that she fakes every moan, every whimper. It’s all a ruse to get through it and I don’t blame her. I know the feeling all too well and I’ve done the same thing time and time again.

I just want to know why she didn’t tell me. Why didn’t she trust me enough to come to me and let me save her? My heartliterally hurts that I can feel her wherever she is, begging for it to stop, screaming for someone to save her. It fucks with my head so bad. It’s like she’s screaming for me, calling my soul to come to hers, but I can’t find her. The realization brings me to my knees, making it hard to breathe without her.

I couldn’t stay in that house another minute while they berated her and called her all sorts of names. Mostly Caspian, but I know he will soon find out the truth and regret everything he said. You can tell he’s hurt. She seeped into his black soul just like the rest of us, but unlike Harley and Rick, he keeps his anger bottled up tight until he can’t take it anymore and completely loses it. And when he does, it’s pure havoc.

Laying in her bed, I inhale deeply into her pillow, then reach over for the blade that’s still sitting where she left it the other night. Picking it up, I twirl it around my fingers as I pull down my sweats and boxers over my hip, bringing the metal to my skin, slicing down three times. The sadness I feel is making me want to cut more, wanting to feel all the pain until I can’t breathe, but I know it won’t help. I won’t be okay until she is back in my arms safely.

Getting up, I walk into her bathroom and find a bandage in her cabinet and place it over my wound. I know she’s not coming back tonight and I should really just go back home.

So I place the blade on her vanity and climb out of her window leaving the same way I came in. I could call one of my brother’s to come get me but I need to be alone.

Clearing my head isn’t helping as I arrive home, walking through the door to see Harley on the couch, talking on the phone. He raises a brow at me and I shake my head and go upstairs.

Opening my bedroom door, I see Caspian is playing video games so I ignore him and strip down to my sweats, climb intobed and close my eyes. I’m done with today and I just hope tomorrow that she comes back.

The next day is no better. Like a robot, I go through the motions of getting up and going to school. Being pissed all day because Presley never shows up and now there are rumors spreading about her. I ignore the lies, even if there’s proof being plastered all over the walls of the halls and being sent all over social media.

I know deep in my heart she was being forced. It took everything in me not to take a knife to Jacob Lee’s throat today as he smirked at us. As him and his friends taunted my brothers every chance he got.

Casp was the only one who stayed cool, and when Jacob thought it was okay to talk shit to my brother, Caspian’s response was to oink at him like a pig. I’ve never seen Jacob Lee’s face go completely white before. That’s when I knew he’s already had an encounter with my brother and he’s going to have another one real soon if he keeps it up. The only thing saving him is this school, because if this shit was happening on the streets, Casp would’ve made a mockery of him. How funny would it be tosee that piece of shit collared and leashed? I’d die of laughter to watch my brother drag the prick around like a little bitch. Maybe I’ll plant the seed later on.

The school day is finally over and I walk home. My brothers all left early and I told them I would just walk. My phone buzzes in my pocket and I take it out to see who it is. It’s probably Casp checking up on me, but my heart stops when I see it’s Presley. Opening up the thread, my heart stills in my chest as I slowly walk up the driveway.

Presley: Hey my Fallen Angel. This is the last time you will hear from me. I’ve been abused, raped and beaten more times than I could ever tell you.

Presley: But I can’t take it anymore. I can’t stay here any longer. If I do, I’ll have to endure more than I already have and I just can’t live this life anymore.

Presley: I hate that I even have to send this to you, but I’m a coward and couldn’t face you. I’d never leave if I told you face to face. But I have to get out of here. I’m sorry. I’m so fucking sorry for everything that has happened.

Presley: Please don’t hate me. I’ve lied to you all every single fucking day and it kills me, but whatever you hear about me, it’s true. Until it’s not.

Presley: I was forced and blackmailed to do those things. You know better than anyone else what it feels like. When you found me the other night, I did want to end my life. I still do because I can’t take it anymore. I’ve had enough. I hurt so fucking much and I know me leaving will hurt you too.

Presley: I’m sorry Axel. I never meant to come into your life, only to abandon you. You saved me more times than you will ever know. You saw the real me, made me strip my mask only for you to accept me underneath it all.

Presley: I don’t want to leave you. If there was another way, I’d do it, but there isn’t. Last night I sold my soul only to ruin myself in the process. I have twelve hours to gather my stuff and say my goodbyes before I marry Jacob Lee and become his trophy wife.

Presley: This was the only way to keep you all safe after having slept with Mr. Radley because I remind him of my dead mother.

Presley: Everything that has happened was punishment for what my mother and the founding women didn’t and couldn’t do. I don’t want this life. I won’t survive.

Presley: Just know that my heart will always be with you. My soul will always yearn for yours Axel. You are embedded deep within my bones.

Presley: Just please, don’t look for me. Move on with your life. Draw all the paintings your heart desires and find a girl who isn’t damaged to help mend your broken heart.

Presley: I will always love you, Axel. Find me in your dreams and let my dark angel wings fly.Love always, Presley.

I stare at the text in disbelief as tears stream down my face. She can’t leave. Everyone always fucking leaves. No one ever picks me. It’s always someone or something else. Alone is all I am. No, I don’t accept this. She isn’t allowed to leave like this. No. No! My heart can’t take it. The only girl my broken soul speaks to is gone. I can’t fucking breathe as my chest tightens and I fall to my knees, dropping my phone on the porch with a thud. I hold my head in my hands as I sob. She left me. She chose another life than one with me and my brothers. I try to take a deep breath, but I can’t, my heart hurts so fucking bad.

The front door swings open as heavy footsteps quickly stomp down the stairs.

“Axel, what’s wrong?” Rick asks as I lift my head to look up at him.

“Sh-she’s gone,” is all I can stammer out. His face drops as his brows furrow.

---