I held him so tight as I kissed his jaw and stared up into his eyes. “I’m here, Simmy.” I whispered to him as he continued to hold me tight.
“For how long,” his voice was low, and I could hear the fear in his voice. “Bad shit happens to me, Anjo… people live to take the people I love away from me, and I can’t handle losing you… losing another person I love.”
My head snapped up when he said that four letter word; I had been longing to hear him say it. I stared him in the eyes. “You love me, Simmy?”
“I love you so much that shit hurts at times… I love you enough to stay away because I know Tookie won’t hesitate to get at you to spite me. I took that man’s family away piece by piece.”
He wasn’t wrong about Tyshawn, and him wanting revenge for Quasim killing his grandfather, and then Rich. Knowing that I was connected to Quasim would only fuel the rage he had for him.
I held his face and kissed his lips. “You wouldn’t let that happen. He tried once, and you came for me, Quasim… why are you having such a hard time trusting yourself with me?”
“Cause I know the minute that I do, there’s no coming back. You don’t know what you want, Anjo. One minute you want me,then the next you telling me that you and Ray is getting serious… You can say you love me and not want this, Anjo.”
“I know what I want, Quasim.”
“You don’t know the other side of me, you fell in love with this Sim… on vacation and being around you. There’s a whole other side of me that not many know about. As much as the shit pisses me off, Ray the better choice for you.”
I laughed as I swiped away my tears. “His name is Zay.”
The infamous eyebrow raised. “You correcting that nigga’s name while laying on top of me, my love… that’s not what you just did, right?”
I giggled and bit down on his lip, while staring him in the eyes. “Who, what’s his face?” I pretended like I couldn’t remember Zay’s name.
“Yeah, ight.”
I leaned up, straddling him while staring down in his eyes. “I want everything that comes with you, Quasim Inferno. I’m not stupid, and I know that you have done things, but that doesn’t take away from the man that you are. You are a good man, and that is the reason I fell in love with you. Baby, you are someone who would share your food with me because you knew I couldn’t finish my own. How many times have you texted and asked me about chemo, even coming to one to sit with me. Simmy, you beat up my landlord and bought me a building because I complained about having to find a new studio space.”
“Anjo,” he started to speak, and I held my hand up as I stared down into his eyes. Watching how he took me in, and seeing the love come through in his eyes.
Finally allowing himself to show me that he felt the same exact way that I felt about him. “I don’t care about the other side. All I know is that nobody can come tell me nothing about you. I want to walk through the fire with you if that’s what it takes, because like I deserve to be loved correctly, you deserve thesame. Baby, you’ve gone so long without being loved that your first reaction is to reject it… reject me.”
His hands found their way to my hips as he held me. “Walk through the fire, huh?”
“Cause even knowing that there’s a chance I could get burned, I know that you would never allow that to happen to me, Simmy. You would protect me with your life, and I would do the same.”
He held my hips with one hand while reaching up and grabbing my neck with the other. Always gentle, he stared into my eyes as his hands wrapped around my neck, and I could feel his member rising.
His hands moved from my neck to both being around my waist, as he pulled me down towards him and shoved his tongue down my throat, squeezing and slapping my ass at the same. It felt like I was sitting on a rising mountain, and my pussy was wet for him.
I wanted him…
Needed him…
As his tongue pushed deeper into my mouth, he flipped me over onto my back and he was now over me. Like how he was in my apartment, but the look in his eyes was different this time as he pulled his lips away from mine and stared down into my eyes.
He kissed me roughly on the lips, then pulled back and looked at me again. The kiss wasn’t just a kiss to Simmy, it was his claim on me.
Like an alpha marking his mate, that was exactly what he was doing. His hand slid down the side of my thigh, and he felt for my panties, snatching them off me with just one pull. I gasped, feeling like my body was on fire.
The heat from our bodies was creating the perfect temperature for a fire. My back arched as he pulled my nightgown over my head, exposing my naked body – again.
This time felt different from the first time I was naked in front of him. As I leaned up onto my elbows, staring at the man before me, I was in awe. The sun was coming up over the water, creating the perfect image for me to take a mental snapshot for the memory bank. He looked like a God kneeling before me.
He was a God.
An Inferno God.
My hands touched his body, rubbing his rock-hard abs and chest while he stared down at me with that look. His eyes stared back at me, then lowered down to his briefs with that brash grin on his face. I took my hands and ran them around the elastic of the waistband, and pulled at them, releasing his dick.