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The idea of going out with Sean when I could be spending my time with Bodhi doesn’t sit well with me.

I would choose Bodhi in a heartbeat.

If only I could get the idea past my father.

I sigh against the door. “Whatever we are, whatever this is, I’m kind of here for it.”

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

BODHI

“Iwas watching a few tapes last night and I really think we can grab the advantage for tomorrow’s game. Take a look at this.” Oliver rewinds a few plays and then resumes the video he asked us to watch. This one in particular is part of Seattle’s game last night against Detroit, but hell if I’m paying any attention whatsoever.

All I can think about is Corri possibly going out with another man.

And Corri kissing another man.

And Corri being touched by another man.

And Corri fucking an?—

“STOP IT!”

I squeeze my eyes closed for a moment and try to shake the idea from my head. When I open my eyes again I realize the guys are all staring at me.

“Stop what?” Oliver asks.

“Fuck. Nothing. I’m sorry.”

Oliver’s brows furrow as his gaze moves from me to Ledger who shrugs helplessly and then he goes back to discussing the video.

“Their defense is loose with the puck so I think we could find ourselves a few opportunities to forecheck if we’re smart about it.”

August nods as we watch in the meeting room, his arms folded across his chest. ”Alright.”

Is he going to use tongue?

Is he going to have his hands on her the way I had my hands on her?

Is he going to taste her the way I’ve tasted her?

Is he going to get the pleasure of hearing her orga?—

“FUUUUUCK!”

Oliver stops. “Dude, what the hell is going on?”

I bring my hand up to rub the back of my neck, my body tightening from the inside out. I’m so fucking hot I’m starting to sweat and my legs are restless.

I can’t stop the worst-case scenarios from running through my mind.

I can’t stop beating myself up for not just telling her how I feel.

For not begging her to just pick me instead.

“I can’t fucking DO this right now!” I shout before I start pacing the floor.

I need to get rid of this anxious energy.

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