Page 74 of What If I Knew You

Is she serious right now?

She wants to go out with another man?

She’s literally sitting here with me right now and she’s thinking about someone else?

Fuck. I guess she’s within her rights.

We’re not really a thing.

But fuck I kind of want to be a thing with her.

I’m attracted to her.

I like being around her.

I would love to see if there’s something more between us.

But if she goes out with another man…

And then what if she…

Fuuuuuuck!

“Okay.”

Okay?

That’s all I have to say?

Okay?

I am so not okay about this.

“Is that what you want?” I shake my head not fully understanding. “Are you asking my permission or something?”

“No, I…” Her shoulders fall and she bows her head. “I guess I don’t know what I want right now. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said anything. This is the wrong day to even be talking about this.”

I lift her chin with my finger. “It’s okay. I’m glad you feel comfortable telling me anything at all. I want to be here for you.”

As your boyfriend.

I want to be here for you as your boyfriend.

Because I like you.

Please for the love of Christ don’t go out with someone else.

“You have to do what makes you happy, Corri. You deserve all the happiness in the world. So, if going out with this guy is what you want, you should do it.”

Jesus fuck, what I wouldn’t give to cut my own lips off right now to shut myself up.

“I…I don’t know. I guess I need to think about it.”

Yeah. Think about it.

Think about it for a long, long, looooong time.

Or tell that guy to fuck off because I’m right here.

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