Page 118 of He Loves Me Knot

The thought of Callum’s hands on Sophia’s body made her shudder.

No reason to be jealous.

Except for the fact that I do give a shit.

. . . because I’m involved with him now.

Feeling stuck but more awkward than ever, Liddy followed in the yoga session, making halfhearted attempts at the poses as Lety came over to check on her from time to time.

I don’t belong here.

Elle did.

Elle was graceful. And next to her was Taryn—a trained, professional dancer.

What was it that Callum had said? That she viewed herself as the ugly duckling?

She wanted so badly to believe Callum’s words, but she hadn’t gotten through the challenges that life had thrown her way by lying to herself either. She would never be like her sister or the other women around her. They had no idea what it was like to have a body that did what it wanted, rather than whatshewanted.

The yoga session was anything but relaxing.

With each second that passed by, Liddy felt a familiar, defeated numbness enclosing over her.

What am I even doing here?

Everything was too confusing. Too complex.

Whatever she was feeling for Callum. Her fears for Elle’s wedding day.

Kyle’s warning had shaken her in a way she hadn’t wanted to admit. Was she risking her heart foolishly?

Callum’s words rang hollowly through her chest as she dropped into child’s pose, trying to ignore the grit of sand beneath her forehead on the mat.

“Because I know who I am. I’m never doing another relationship. Ever. I will ruin you. And I won’t like it. But it still won’t stop me.”

He’d nearly promised hewouldhurt her. So how would she stop that?

In his arms, with their bodies intertwined, it had been too easy to forget that he didn’t want her. That he would call her beautiful and sexy, but then walk away when this was over.

And the thought of that made her heart ache, a low, pulsing, dull pain in her chest.

And then there was Elle’s wedding. She had meant to support Elle, make sure she was happy. And she thought she had been. ..but . . .

“The only person I’ve seen causing waves lately is you.”

Was Mom right?That I’m the one causing all the issues here?

As the session wrapped up, Liddy rolled her mat up slowly, then dumped it in the pile. If Elle was happy, then that was all that mattered. And right now, Elle looked happy. The total opposite of what Liddy felt. Was she just assuming Elle was miserable because of how she was feeling herself?

She started to walk away, but Elle saw her and came toward her. “Hey! I didn’t know you came out here until the end. You should have come and hung out with me. I miss you.”

“Everyone wants to be next to the bride,” Liddy said with a shrug. She clasped her sister’s hand. “Anyway, I got to hang out with Rebecca and Isla.”

“Isla?” Elle searched the group on the beach for her. She stepped closer to Liddy and lowered her voice. “Did she bring my dress? I really need to try it on.”

Umm.

How am I going to explain this?

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