Page 45 of Confusing Hearts

I had thought the invasion of my first time would hurt. It didn't. There was a slight sting followed by a fullness that left me feeling whole, complete. I didn't need to worry or feel uncomfortable around Chase. He was patient and gentle, but mostly my body instinctively knew what to do and soon was matching his rhythm until a sort of convulsion took over me.

“Chase!” I screamed out, feeling myself so close to the edge.

“Jenna,” he growled, and that was all it took to push me over. He joined me soon, as his weighted body collapsed on mine and jerked violently through his own release.

Still huffing hard and trying to catch my breath, he rolled off me and disappeared through one of the doors in the room, returning shortly with a warm washcloth that he used to clean me up. I saw a small amount of blood on the rag when he pulled it back and quickly looked down. It wasn't as bad as I had imagined. I should have felt embarrassed, but I didn't. He already knew I was a virgin, and I only bled a little, but the fact that he even thought to care for me in that way made my heart overflow with love.

“I love you, Chase,” I whispered, and his hand stilled as his eyes flew up to search mine.

He gave me the sexiest smirk I'd ever seen. “I love you too, Jenna.” He followed up those beloved words with a heart-melting kiss. “You are mine. Always. Whatever happens, whatever life throws our way, we're in it together from now on.” His warm hand on my face gently brushed a tear from my cheek. “Mine,” he growled before giving me one more unforgettable kiss.

He took his cleanup efforts back to the bathroom and pulled down the covers when he returned. I slid beneath them, crisp and cool, but only for the brief moment it took Chase to join me, then they instantly warmed.

He pulled me to him, rolling me towards him so that my head rested on his chest. We didn't speak. His hand lightly rubbed my back and my eyes became heavy and I began to purr softly. Contentment soon lulled me into a deep sleep.

My next coherent memory was of Chase’s hands on my breast. I took a deep breath and smelled that unique scent that was only Chase before any fear could possibly set in. It brought me such comfort. He smelled like home to me, like safety, like all things good, like the promise of our future.

All the memories of the day before came rushing back to me. I hesitated a moment to let them sink in. Was I scared? Was I upset? Had I done the right thing? No. No. Yes. I was consumed by love for my mate.

“You are nearly impossible to wake,” he protested as his hot breath tormented my hard nipples before taking one into his mouth. I moaned as I opened my eyes to complete darkness.

“What time is it?” I asked sleepily, feeling the new sensations of arousal flame within me.

“Who cares?” Chase said in a deep, husky voice that caused goosebumps to break out all over me. “I need you. Mine,” he growled.

“Yours,” I confirmed, sleepily, though my body was waking up faster than my foggy, now lust filled, brain.

He moved over me and peppered my chest and neck with light kisses till he reached my mouth. I growled into him as he entered me slowly and began a seductive rhythm so very different from our first time. He whispered sweet words and told me he loved me as he held me close, never changing pace until the very end. His own climax caused mine to trigger and I had tears in my eyes as my body and breathing began to still again.

It was the most beautiful moment of my life and felt like a dream I never wanted to wake from.

He tucked me close to him again and kissed the top of my head as my exhausted body pulled me back to sleep.

The next time I awoke Chase was still asleep, but his alarm was going off on his phone. A brief moment of fear set in. It was morning and I hadn't made it home yesterday. As soon as my sisters found out all that had happened, I was going to be kicked out anyway. Anguish filled me. It was too late to reconsider the consequences. Chase and I had sealed our bond. I waited for the panic to rise . . . nothing but sheer happiness followed at the thought. It was a true sign that I had made the right decision.

“Hey, sleepyhead, I thought you didn't have class till after lunch today,” I said, poking him in the side.

“I don't,” he murmured.

“Well, your alarm isn't going to turn itself off.”

“My alarm?”

“Yes,” I told him.

He finally seemed to register the sound for himself and grabbed for it on the nightstand next to us without even opening his eyes. It shut off immediately, but he opened one eye to look at it.

“Shit,” he said, sitting up quickly and taking the sheets with him.

“Hey,” I protested.

“Sorry, beautiful, but we're going to be late if we don't hurry.”

Suddenly Chase was out of the bed, fully awake, and still gloriously naked.

“I really hadn't meant to sleep all night here. Are you going to be okay in yesterday's clothes?” He shot me a killer grin filled with mischief. “It's not like you were in them that long.”

I threw a pillow at him, laughing. “What are we late for? I don't even have classes today, my only one canceled.”

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