“Ignore it. Don’t think about where we are. Think about who you’re with.” Her nails dug into my neck as I fucked her harder. “You’re with me, baby. Only me, and I’m making you feel this good.”
“Oh, Joska!” Her cries got louder, and she moved her hips to meet my thrusts. “Harder!”
I continued and took her mouth again, plunging my tongue inside to taste more of her. As much as I tried to focus on only her, I couldn’t help getting flashbacks of all the other women I had sex with in a damn church. None of those memories were worth thinking about though because Bennie was the only one I had feelings for while crossing this line.
She was the only one that mattered. She was my past, my present, and my future.
Her body started shaking, and I broke the kiss again to look at her face as she orgasmed. I loved watching her come. Loved seeing all those emotions wash over her face. And as I kept pumping into her, I helped her reach that climax, letting her ride it out for as long as she needed to before it was my turn.
I wanted her to have everything.
As controlling as I could be, I didn’t want to control her. Or her body.
I wanted her to feel free and loved.
And to feel fulfilled in any way possible at any given time of her life.
Chapter 18
BENNIE
Ever since Joska, life felt lighter. Easier.
It was a strange way to put it, but with every new morning I woke up, the happier I was. My chest was filled with love, and nothing ever ruined my mood. Not even the guy who accidentally walked right into me this morning and ruined my white sweater with the ketchup-covered hot dog he was holding.
I changed into a new sweater once I got to work, and I kept smiling all day long, unable to stop because I was just so happy.
“What’s up with her?” Sinclair walked into the shop looking as beautiful as ever.
I looked up at her and pursed my lips.
Dad let out a huff and waved a hand. “She’s been grinning like that the whole damn week.”
“Does that have something to do with your man, Bennie?” Sin asked with a smirk. “You haven’t told me much about you and Joska lately. But it looks like you’re enjoying the time with him.”
I felt my cheeks turn bright red as she mentioned his name. “I’m happy,” I admitted, smiling over at Dad before looking at Sin again. “Joska’s coming to dinner tomorrow night. We’ll have an early Christmas dinner.”
“Oh, really? That sounds fun.” She smiled and leaned against the counter in front of me. “That way he will officially meet you, Connor.”
Dad laughed. “Yeah, I guess I owe him that. I figured, showing up at his church wasn’t very classy, and I think I truly scared him. He’s making my daughter happy, and I want him to know that I’m fine with him dating her.”
“That’s sweet of you. Joska’s a good guy,” Sin assured him. “And it’s clear Bennie here is happy.”
“My sister will come too. I hope she’ll behave. She’s still angry at the world for getting divorced, and every time I try to talk to her, she snaps at me.” When I called my sister to invited her to dinner tomorrow, I told her that my new boyfriend would be there too. And that I would be excited for her to meet him. She wasn’t very enthusiastic and said that I shouldn’t expect a lot from her because she was still so heartbroken.
I understood that a divorce was something difficult to deal with, but she was still my big sister whose support I hoped to count on. But the way she acted sometimes was discouraging and disappointing.
“I’ll make sure she behaves tomorrow. Don’t you worry, darling.”
“I hope so,” I muttered before smiling at Sin. “Would you like to join us with your men and Luca?”
“I would love to, but we’re leaving town for the weekend.”
“Really? Where are you going?”
“Aspen. We’re going skiing. Well, Ford, Tabor, and I will. Link and Archer will stay with Luca.”
“Oh, that sounds fun! We haven’t been skiing in a while, Dad. We should go someday soon,” I suggested.