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It would’ve been hard to admit for an earlier version of myself that I was falling in love with her, but I had no issue confessing that now.Fuck…I couldn’t get enough of her.

Sliding my hands own to her ass, I squeezed it tightly while pulling her even closer to my body. She melted into me, with the kiss deepening even more, and when she started to circle her hips against mine, I started to become impatient.

I wanted more of her.Fuck, I wanted all of her.

I broke the kiss to let us both catch a breath, and when her eyes met mine, I could see the fire in them. The passion that burned between us was intense, but it hadn’t hit us unexpectedly. We knew it would slowly come to this.

I paced both hands on her cheeks and brushed back her hair, tugging it behind her ears as I admired her beautiful face. “You know I’m trying really hard to behave here,” I whispered with a small grin.

“Me too.”

I chuckled before pressing a quick kiss to her lips. “Yeah? Then we’re both in hot water,” I whispered, staying close to her. “What do we do about that, sweetheart?”

She shrugged, furrowing her brows. “I’m not so sure.”

We were both silent for a moment, letting this fire between us burn bright. We didn’t want to extinguish it though.

I pressed another kiss to her lips, unable to stay away from her. “Maybe we just stop pretending we can behave,” I murmured into the kiss.

She lowered her head, breaking the kiss unwillingly. I watched as she took her time to weigh my words, and when her eyes met mine, the need in them was intense.

“I don’t like to pretend, anyway.”

Hearing those words moved something in me, and we had made our decision.

No more taking it slow.

No more waiting.

We needed each other, in any way possible.

Chapter 15

BENNIE

As much as I wanted to let myself go, I was worried I couldn’t keep up with him.

I had experience with guys before, but no man had ever made me feel this way.

Joska made me feel powerful and confident, which at times could be overwhelming because I never had the chance to live out that side of me. I knew he wanted me, and I wanted him, but I didn’t want to disappoint him.

What if I couldn’t open up? Show him the side of me I knew was hidden deep inside of me? The one side that my ex used to suppress by being abusive toward me.

“Do you want me to stop?” Joska asked. He leaned back and kept me at distance as he watched me closely.

“No, I don’t want you to stop. But I need you to…” I stopped and looked down at my hands, unsure how to phrase what I wanted to say next. “I want this. You know I do. But I need you to go slow.”

Joska’s eyes never left me, and he gave me the time I needed. His hands covered mine, squeezing gently. “We can wait.”

I slowly shook my head. I was emotional, but I wasn’t unsure about this. “No, I want this. Tonight.”

“Okay.”

There was silence again, and I knew he was waiting for me to make the next move. He wanted me to take this into my own hands and show him that I wanted this. He was respecting me and waiting for me to give him the okay.

He was the first man who treated me right.

The first one who accepted me for who I was, and who gave me the time I needed.

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