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“Oh, no…”

“He probably heard his brother when he was webcamming with me, and when he came by, he wanted to see my room. Then he snooped around my things and found the mask, calling me Dove.”

“Oh, shit.”

Yeah, same.

“Wait, he didn’t punish you or anything, right? Did he hurt you?” Kennedy asked, looking at me with wide eyes.

“He did, but not in a way you think,” I said, not able to keep in a chuckle. “I liked it. A lot. It seems we have the same kinks. Same way of enjoying all kinds of sexual experiences.”

“Then why are you so sad?” she asked, her voice gentle and filled with worry.

“Because he doesn’t wanna see me again. Not unless I drop Dove.”

She didn’t respond at first, and after brushing through my hair for a while, she sighed. “Can I be honest with you?”

“Youhaveto be.”

“Right. Maybe you don’t need her anymore. I don’t know what he wants, or what you want from him, but it doesn’t seem right for you to spend time with other men, seeing them naked and them seeing you naked while you have a guy in real life who’s willing to…uh…”

“Fuck me. We never talked about what this between us is, which for me is just fun. Sure, I like him, but I don’t think he as a fifty-six-year-old wants to have an actual relationship with an eighteen-year-old,” I sighed.

“Have you asked him that?”

“God, no. He’d probably laugh at me.”

Kennedy shrugged. “You’ll never know if you don’t ask. If he says he doesn’t want you to see other men, making him look like he’s jealous, I don’t think he’s just in it for some fun.”

She had a point there, but it was Riggs we’re talking about, and that man was a huge wall of alpha-man.

Not sure he would let someone in that way, especially at his age.

“He doesn’t wanna see me again. At least that’s what he said.”

“But that doesn’t hold you back from going to his home and talking to him,” she pointed out.

“No, it won’t. Still…I think I have to think about it first. If I give those men up, who knows how upset they’ll be? And what if this thing with Riggs doesn’t work out? Then I’ll stand here all alone.”

She shook her head and smiled. “You’ve told me about those men before, and I think they’re desperate. So…maybe tell them you’ll take a break because of family issues. Things like that happen all the time. Didn’t you tell me about a porn star getting back into the industry after five years, and now she’s one of the best known porn stars ever?”

That made me laugh. “Yeah, that’s true. But I’m not a porn star. Those men pay a subscription to see me, and when I’m gone, they’ll find a different girl to have fun with.”

“You don’t know that. Jesus, who are you and where did you bury my best friend?”

She pushed me away from her gently, making me sit up and look directly into her eyes.

“You’re confident, strong, and the most badass woman I’ve ever met. How is this bringing you down to your knees? He’s a man. You’ve never taken any shit from a man before. At least not the ones you told me about. How much different can this one be?”

I smiled at her words, but as true as those words were, she had no clue how different Riggs was.

“He has this intense way of just…being. His presence makes me shiver, and his touch melts me. No matter what he says or does, sexually or not, he makes me feel a way I just can’t explain.”

Kennedy studied my face for a while before grinning, and I already knew what she was about to say.

“No, Ken. I’m not falling for him,” I muttered.

“I’m not saying that,” she laughed, then shrugged. “But maybe you’re starting to feel something for him. At least it’s a start.”

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