Page 30 of My Young Alpha Daddy

Now I’ve got Rafa, I don’t need to hold back.

Life is for the living, and it’s even better with a Daddy like mine.

I wake up early from my nap and see that both Nick and Toby are still fast asleep on their sleeping mats with the covers pulled all the way up.

Rafa and his friend are in the café area enjoying a drink, or at least they were before us Littles went to have our snoozie-time.

Maybe it’s because I’m the only one awake, but suddenly I find my mind beginning to wander.

I was in Little space earlier, and everything felt just perfect.

But now… something’s different.

Maybe it was all the talk about how good things are with Rafa as my Daddy, but I can’t help thinking back to how terrible my last breakup was.

The crying – by me.

The shouting – mainly from my stinky old Daddy.

The way I felt like absolute crap for weeks afterward.

What if something happened and me and Rafa broke up?

I might feel even worse than I did after my last breakup. And if that was the case, I don’t know how I would handle it.

I’m busy at work too, and I don’t think dealing with any kind of relationship trouble would be good, especially if I’m still trying to get the Debussy deal signed and sealed.

My feelings for Rafa aresooooostrong.

But is that a problem?

Maybe I need to take a step back and let things cool off just a bit. The last thing I want to happen is for everything to move forward at super-speed and then all come crashing down afterward.

Part of my thinks this is crazy to even contemplate for a second. After all, how often is it that an older Little like me has a chance to be with such a handsome, successful, and well put together younger Daddy like Rafa.

It might be a mistake, or it might not – but I don’t want to risk another painful breakup right now.

I think it might be time to leave The Fluffy Diaper and do some thinking on my own…

Aaron: Daddy, sorry for leaving so quickly. I just… need some time. I hope that’s okay?

Rafa: Time? Sure. You take all the time you need, baby boy. I’ve got you, you know that . Daddy XoXo

Aaron: That means a lot, thank you. I might be older, but that doesn’t mean I’ve always got all the answers. Sometimes I think my extra experience makes things harder A XoXoXo

Rafa: Boy, relax. It’s all good . Like I said, I’m always here for you. I don’t want you to rush into anything. You always need to feel safe and secure. I wouldn’t be doing my job as a Daddy if my boy felt unsafe. Daddy XoXo

I can’t believe how lucky I am to have Rafa as my Daddy.

I thought he might be upset or even angry when I left The Fluffy Diaper in such a hurry, but sitting in my Uber and messaging him now, I can see that he cares about me way too much to put himself first.

But I’m going to stick to my guns and really think this through.

I know that I have big feelings for Rafa, that’s not the issue.

What I need to work out is whether I’m ready to let those big feelings get even bigger – so big that they could change my lifeforever.

Chapter 10

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