Page 94 of Untouchable Player

“No, I just want you to know how much I like you.”

I swallow. “I like you too.”

“I mean, more than just sex. It’s okay if you don’t feel the same way…”

I lean up on my elbow, “of course I feel the same way.”

“But you said you’d never date a guy.”

“Yeah well, I was a fucking idiot.”

I kiss him. “I didn’t know I was gay until… this, or, I knew I was into men, but I thought it was just a sex thing. It’d never been so good that I realised what I’d been doing with girls wasn’t what I wanted. And I’d never liked a man outside of the sex stuff before.”

“You know even if you were bi, you can’t choose who you… like.”

“I know that. I told you, I’m an idiot.”

Nate puts touches his fingers to my lips, “shh, don’t shit talk someone I like. Actually, why don’t you put that mouth to better use?”

He puts his hand over his face, “I’m sorry, I can’t believe I just said that.”

“No, I liked it, don’t apologise. And I’ll get to it,” I start kissing a path from his neck down his stomach, “right… now.”

Nate

Mom jumps up as soon as I come into the kitchen like she’s been sitting there waiting for me.

“Coffee?”

I accept the offer and put a few pieces of bread in the toaster.

“I’ll do that, you sit down.”

I let her fuss around me, and when the toast and coffee is ready, she puts it down in front of me and watches me eat.

“Is everything okay?” I ask.

“Hmm, yes, is everything okay with you?”

“Yep.”

She watches me with an intensity I’ve only ever seen on her face when watching reality TV and Harrison’s hockey games.

“I saw the condoms in your waste paper basket,” she blurts out.

I stop chewing mid-bite and put my toast down.

“What are you… I don’t know what you mean.”

“Oh honey, it’s okay.”

“What were you doing in my room?”

I push my chair out and let indignation overtake my embarrassment.

“I was making sure you didn’t have any laundry that had been there for a year.”

“I’m not Harrison, I can do my own laundry.”

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