Page 3 of So Special: Fanatic Love

ForThe_LoveOf_Katniss: I guess I can do that. I’ll see you soon.

Katniss Raven Roland

What Do You Mean I’m Pregnant…

“Best friend, I don’t know why you haven’t gone to the urgent care yet.” Daisy had been fussing at me for almost a week. I was overly annoyed with her. “You’re in nursing school, so stop playing before they stop you from going to the hospital. You know that’s going to put you back and you’re going to be mad at yourself.”

We were in her apartment above her parents’ garage. I liked my apartment, but I loved hers. She’d invited me to move in since it was a two bedroom, but I declined. Her parents suggested it as a way for me to save money. I loved her parents for that. I still declined the invitation because I loved Daisy, but I needed my space when I wanted my space. Her chipper mood can be draining at times when I want to sit in my rut. If I got into a rut now, she wouldn’t hesitate to come to my apartment to annoy me across town, so imagine if we were in the same household.

I thought about what she said. Unfortunately, I begrudgingly agreed. To push myself back at this point becauseI wanted to be bullheaded was not a smart move. “Fine, we can go. I told you that it’s just a stomach bug or something.” She gave me a side-eye and I quickly put my index finger up, then said, “Bitch, don’t play with me. Me and Asher used protection.”

Daisy’s face contorted. “Well, bitch, who is your baby daddy? I swear if you doubled back to that fuck boy Ryan, I’m going to beat your face the fuck up.” Daisy’s crazy ass was serious about being alright with punching a pregnant woman in the face.

“Girl, we don’t even know if I’m pregnant.” I rolled my eyes. “You always do the most.”

She kissed her teeth before she got up from her couch. “Well, get your ass up so I can find out that I’m going to be a god-auntie.”

Without words, I got up from my seat on her couch. “Come on so these people can tell you that it’s just a damn bug. Ole annoying ass girl.”

She burst into laughter. “You love me though.” After she grabbed her keys out of the key bowl, she told me that she would drive. I’m glad she knew because she’s the one that wanted me to go. She’s paying the damn copay, too, since she’s wasting our time.

“Congratulations,Miss Roland. You are indeed pregnant,” the doctor said after he walked in the patient room that me and Daisy sat in. When I got here, Daisy told them to do a urine and blood test to confirm that I was pregnant.

In that moment, I singlehandedly brought back the mannequin challenge. My lids expanded to make room for my bulging eyes. Daisy had to pat my back to remind me tobreathe. After I finally blinked, I replied, “No, that can’t be possible. There is no way I’m pregnant.”

The doctor looked back at the file for a moment. “Based on the results of your urine and blood test, you are, Miss Roland. I urge you to visit your OB-GYN. They will be able to confirm how far along you are.” He closed the folder. “I’ll give you two a minute.”

Tears formed. “I don’t know how this happened.” My head snapped toward Daisy. “We used protection the entire time and I haven’t had sex well before him or after him, Daisy.”

Daisy pulled me into a hug. “It’s alright, best friend. Give me your phone.” I gave her my phone as I silently cried.

I was so confused right now.Did a condom break?No, I would have thought he would have told me that so that I could have gotten a Plan-B or something. Daisy gave me back my phone before she told me to come on. When I asked where we were going, she let me know that she was able to schedule an emergency appointment for me in an hour with my doctor.

I slid down from the table, then moped out of the urgent care.What the fuck is going on?Me and Daisy rode to my doctor’s office in complete silence. It took about twenty-five minutes to get to the office and another five to find a parking space. We sat in the car for another fifteen minutes so I could get myself together. I knew what the doctor would say. How could I deny the results of a blood and urine test?

It didn’t take long to get checked-in and be put in a room once we got into the office. Luckily, it was a light appointment day for the office hence being able to get an appointment on the same day. That hardly ever happened. They followed the same procedures as the urgent care and received the same result. I sat there as I waited for the ultrasound tech in disbelief like it was my first time hearing the news.I’m fucking pregnant.

“What am I going to do with a baby? I can barely take care of myself,” I mumbled. My little warehouse job just covered my bills, and this was not something that I would put on my parents. Unsure of how I got here, it was still my responsibility.

The ultrasound tech came in and did her thing. When she told me how far along I was and my conception window, it confirmed what I dreaded. I was pregnant with Asher Kane Wilson’s baby. Yeah, I was his number one fan, but I promise an autograph and dick was enough of a gift from him. He could have kept the baby.

It took me a week to get the courage to tell my parents about my irresponsibility that resulted in an unplanned pregnancy with a man I didn’t know. Yes, I know all about Asher Kane in a fan way, but not a real person way. Daisy, of course, was with me to break the news during dinner.

“Why y’all so quiet tonight?" my mother questioned. “Usually, I can’t shut you two up.”

There was no need to beat around the bush. I knew if I did, my dad would quickly get annoyed.Time to rip the band-aid off.“Mom, Dad, I’m pregnant.”

The room fell stone silent. My mother glanced between me and my father. My father placed his fork on his plate then put his head into the palms of his hand. “Katniss Raven, I know your ass did not go back to that fuck ass nigga and let him get you pregnant.”

My head shook vigorously. “No! No! We haven’t dealt with each other in forever.” When he looked up and asked me who was the father of my child, I mumbled, “Asher Kane Wilson.”

My father stared at me but said nothing. I sat there awkwardly under his stare. I would have rather him say something than to look at me like he wanted to jump across the table at me.

“Baby, did you hear her?” my mama asked him.

He took a breath. “Yeah, I heard what the fuck she said. I’m trying to understand how that happened, but I honestly don’t want to know. I’m a man, and seeing that you never told us that you and Asher were talking, dating, or anything like that I’ll use context clues and common sense.” He pushed his chair back. “I need a second.”

When he walked out of the dining room, I broke. I felt like a complete failure. My father’s disappointment would always hurt me more than his being upset with me. My mother came over to me. Daisy stood so my mother could sit in her seat. “Baby, calm down,” she said after she pulled me into her arms. “He just needs a minute to digest it.”

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