Why was I feeling happy and carefree? I should have been weighed down by grief and responsibility, but as I swayed with her in my arms and took in her lazy eyes and relaxed smile, I couldn’t force myself to feel anything but peace.
Her head tilted and smile wavered. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing, little one.”
“You sure?”
“Yeah. Just got a lot on my mind.”
“Whatever it is, it can wait until we get home. It’s our honeymoon, and I know I won’t see you when we get back. Your mind belongs to me until we leave.”
I couldn’t argue with that even if I wanted to, so I chuckled and lowered myself to give her a kiss. “All of me is yours, Eyela. I give you my word.”
“The fuck?”I frowned and pulled Eyela’s hair to get her mouth off my dick. She was feeling confident enough to suck me off when we got back to the residence, and I thought I’d have to talk her through it. Imagine my surprise when she started giving me sloppy head like a motherfucking pro. “Aye, whose dick you been sucking?”
Her giggle as she gripped my thighs only pissed me off more. She was supposed to be the only thing on this Earth that was truly mine until we had kids, and I was starting to not even want to share her with their asses.
“Nobody,” she answered sweetly.
“Then how do you know what to do?”
With a shrug, she looked away innocently. “I bought a dildo to practice with so I could please you.” When her eyes returned to me, she asked, “Does it feel good?”
Relaxing my frame and my expression, I nodded. “Yeah. It feels good as hell, little one. Keep going.”
My grip on her hair loosened and she returned her mouth to my dick. Between the warmth and pressure, I was close to nutting already. “Wrap your hand around it and stroke it while you suck,” I ordered.
She did, and I hissed. When she moaned, I groaned. She added a second hand and twisted her wrists. Seconds later, I wastelling her to get up so I could cum. Sucking dick was one thing, but I didn’t know if she could handle swallowing just yet. Again, she surprised me by stroking my dick and allowing my nut to coat her tongue. She swallowed it, then sat on her knees like a good little girl with her hands cupped, palms forward, on her thighs. I couldn’t imagine how I was looking at her as I sat up on my elbows, but it made her cover her face and laugh.
“Was it good?” she asked.
“Very good. You didn’t hear the way you had me moaning?”
I tugged her forward so she could ride. That would be a first, too, but I was confident she could handle it.
“I’m happy I could please you. Doing so made me really wet.” She put my hand between her legs, causing me to moan. “See. Is that normal?”
Chuckling, I sat her down on my dick. “Yeah, that’s normal, baby. I want you to show me that you can ride this dick. I’ll guide you.”
She inhaled a shaky breath as I pulled her up my shaft. “O-okay.”
It only took a couple minutes of me guiding her movements for her to catch on. When I let her take control, she kept a steady pace. I alternated between stroking her clit and massaging her nipples as she released sizzling breaths. When my hands squeezed her round ass, her chin trembled. It seemed the more I touched her, the more aroused she became. Whether my hands were on her waist, ass, or clit, a sound was coming out of her mouth. The way her pussy was leaking, I could tell this was going to be her favorite position. I still wanted to hit her from the back though.
“You’re doing such a good job, little one. You’re riding my dick so good.”
Eyela whimpered as her head flung back. I leaned forward and wrapped my hand around her neck. My toes started to curlas her walls clenched. It wasn’t long before my stomach was clenching and her body jerked as we came together. Flipping her over, I stroked her deeply until we came again. I cleaned her up because she was going to sleep before I even pulled out all the way. As I showered, I battled my thoughts.
Regardless of how close we were getting, a part of me wanted to protect myself. I’d lost a lot to this lifestyle, and now I feared losing her too. It would have been different if I had no attachment to her at all, but if we started to act like a real couple, that would complicate things. The marriage was arranged and could only be on paper once we had at least one child, but I still wanted to please her, provide for her, protect her, and make sure she was taken care of. And as our time here progressed, I was starting to want to love her too.
14
Eyela
Two Days Later
We wentdiving at Big Blue yesterday, and I still couldn’t get over the sights or experience. Seeing the sharks, rays, and sea turtles up close was almost mythical. I got a little emotional at the sight of sea turtles, because Daddy always told me to be like them—soft on the inside but hard on the outside. He taught me to keep my emotions in check so no one would know what I was thinking or feeling unless I allowed them to. I’d allowed Karrington into that side of me, and he had his moments where he let me in, but I could tell he was starting to shut down.
After hearing about his ranch life in Massie Manor, we didn’t have to give the farm excursion a second thought. Today, we spent the afternoon touring their coconut and banana groves. As we had lunch, Karrington appeared to be going back into his shell. I was conflicted and unsure if I wanted to leave him alone or talk to him about it. Since tomorrow was our last day and we’d be spending it on a private yacht, I figured it would be best to talk now so tomorrow wouldn’t be awkward.