Page 122 of Chosen Beta

It’s probably a good thing I’m not the type to make the first move.

Otherwise, I might be tempted to lean in and find out if she would kiss me back.

I have a feeling she would, but thankfully that’s not enough to give me the guts to do it.

The timing is off, despite how we’re both feeling, and she’s trying very hard to focus on her work.

So, I try to think about something else.

Unfortunately, her office is the least stimulating environment I’ve ever been in.

I’m all caught up with my podcasts, and I watched so many videos on my phone last night that I have zero desire to scroll around looking for more to hold my attention.

I feel the need to do something, but there’s nothing to do.

Pete is in professional mode, so he’s unlikely to respond well if I try to start an idle conversation.

I can feel his gaze on me, almost like he’s willing me to behave.

It’s not like I’m going to walk over there and try to get him off in front of Lana.

It might be fun, but I know it wouldn’t be appropriate.

At least not yet, and not while Lana’s distracted with serious stuff.

I can’t wait for Owen to get back. Whatever mood he’s in, I can handle.

As soon as we’re alone, he’ll give me what I’m craving.

It’s been so damn long since I had regular intimate attention from my Alphas, and now that we’re all in the same place again, it feels like I’m getting close to a heat, which is kind of weird considering that’s literally never happened to me before.

I waited for it for years, ever since I met Ezra and Owen.

Considering it never happened once we became mates, I assumed it wasn’t on the cards for me. But maybe the circumstances were just never right. We’re only fully together as a pack part of the time, and finding out we have another true mate means we were never complete.

It’s entirely possible that she’s the missing piece of my heat puzzle.

Of course, we’re going to remain an incomplete pack until my Alphas get around to telling Lana she’s meant for us, and I doubt that’s going to be something that happens soon.

This whole thing is going to drive me insane.

And I know I’m not the only one.

Pete has no patience, either and Lana’s definitely having feelings for us.

I don’t think making her wait too long is the smart move.

She might think we’re not interested in the meantime.

I wish Ezra wasn’t so damn careful about everything he does, and I wish Owen wasn’t so stubborn once he makes his mind up about something.

They’re supposed to be in charge, and all they’re doing is making everyone wait.

I get the feeling we’re all going to be in a little pain by the time the wait is over.

I start swinging my feet, careful not to let them hit the cabinet.

My brain feels like it’s about to start melting out of boredom.

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