Page 12 of Agony of Our Regret

Gavin shrugged. “Maybe if you hadn’t been crying and acting like you were hiding something. They might not say you’re pregnant, but they’ll likely mention you acting off. Maybe ask if anyone else has noticed anything.”

The last thing I wanted was all of them talking about me, gossiping and theorizing.

“We could tell them,” Luca suggested, and I flinched.

“Absolutely not.”

“Why?” Gavin pressed.

“Because they’ll tell their sons.”

Luca dropped his head back.

“They should know.” Gavin squeezed my shoulder then pulled me in for a hug as I shook my head.

“I don’t want them coming back because they feel like they have to.”

“We know,” Luca chided. “You’ve made that clear.”

I leaned away from Gavin so I could look at both of them. “I thought you agreed.”

“Would you rather they hear it from us or their parents?” Gavin asked.

I cringed. Neither, ideally.

“Have you accepted this yet?” Luca asked.

His question caught me off guard.

“What?”

“The fact that you’re pregnant. That we’re having a baby.”

I rubbed my nose. “The morning sickness is hard to ignore.”

He tilted his head. “You haven’t talked about it. Only when one of us brings it up.”

I shrugged.

“Do you want to have this baby?” Gavin asked.

“Yes.”

My answer didn’t sound confident at all.

“Do you?” Luca put his hand on my knee.

I sighed and dropped my head back against my chair. “I’m not necessarily looking forward to the rest of pregnancy or the labor part. I’m not sure how to be a mom or what that will look like. I’ve never even been around babies before. I don’t have the first clue about what to do, but I’ve always wanted kids. I just didn’t think it would happen so soon.”

“That didn’t answer our question,” Luca said gently.

Was it even an option at this point? I hadn’t looked into the laws about termination because it never crossed my mind. That meant something, right?

“I’m still adjusting to it being real, but not having the baby has never been an option I considered. As long as I have you two, I can do this.” As soon as the words were out, I knew in my heart they were right.

“You’ll never be alone.” Gavin lowered to his knees in front of me. “I swear that to you.”

Luca took my hand. “He’s right. We will take care of the two of you.”

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